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Waking Up from a Bad Dream

Pahn — Thu, 24 Nov 2011 21:26:45 +0000

I just woke up from a bad dream 4am this morning, it was a real pain that I have to go straight to the computer and tweet about it. then I decided to jog around.

Hi!, this is Pahn again, realizing that I have been wasting so much time in my life. With that dream, I have seen that I have been trying so hard in improving my life for that certain girl. And yes, she was in my dream. Let me quickly share that dream:

It was a regular day in the office few years from now. It was such a great scene at first thinking that she would be my co-worker, which I have to work with some project. I have always been wanting that to happen. So, I was about to sit with her for her presentation about a certain design. It felt the same way as we are awkward to one another… until she spill it out… **** is my boyfriend.. we had been together for 9 months now…. And I was really stunned by that scene… everything started moving slowly as she followed that line with a normal conversation.. As if she was hiding that secret from me and had the relief that she was able to say it already… and as she continues on her presentation, I may have fainted like I lost all the hopes in the world… and it followed of me waking up from the worst dream ever…

I knew that it was an impossible dream and it is not close to what is happening at the moment. But as I jog, I was thinking that what if in the future, that would happen. Success are just around the corner, and I am so close in telling her I love her. It will definitely ruin my life. And I am gonna go to my plan B (the bachelor).

Anyway, that goes as far from my love life. the reason I made this post is to remind me someday that this dream happened. And of course, one of the things that I have been wasting my life with is about not blogging. Yes, I have not been blogging for two years now. My last post was of January of 2010. I have been paying for my domains that I have not been using.

So, I just got to continue my plan of going in and start doing the things that I have to do, before everything is too late. As it goes on Blogging, Career and Love Life.

I Welcomed New Year with Nothing but My Heart

Pahn — Fri, 01 Jan 2010 05:12:16 +0000

Happy New Year everybody!!!

This is really a very different start of the year for me. For this time, I am starting the year with absolutely no possession of any materialistic stuff. I have no cell phone, no driver’s license, no money, no good health, and not even the PC!!!

How did all this happen? Well, it started before Christmas, when I had been on a car accident, where my card hit some pedestrians on a highway. Starting that moment, I have been going into debts for the hospital bills and medicine assistance. Good thing the victims were alive and now well, they just need continuous medication. And since I do not have any savings, I have to borrow money due to this accident. And we still need to get the car fixed as well. So debts are running into my soul right now. Couple of days after the accident, I had been bitten by a dog, and the day after by as rat. So I am still uncertain about the health of my body. But I am still good as of today; I would just need some anti-rabies injection to make sure.

And it has not yet stopped there. A day before Christmas, I was a victim of pickpocket and my cell phone was taken from me on a bus. It was my N-Series phone which really cost me a lot. And after Christmas, we were able to settle the police report about the accident, and it was a good thing that I will not shoulder all the hospital cost and no criminal demands against me. But the bad thing about helping is that my license was confiscated and I have to bail it too.

With all of those things that happen, I still am not complaining and I know that they are all just a test for me. So I am getting ready to welcome the New Year with love and trust to God. Few hours before the New Year’s countdown, we have to clean our home and I have decided to adjust my computer wirings and clean all the dust. And I don’t know what the heck happened, that my computer suddenly won’t work again. I checked everything and found out the monitor got grounded and it had affected the CPU’s motherboard as well. And even if I want to curse out all these bad luck that happened to me, I took a silent prayer, and accepted it that it was all just a test.

I know all the things gone from me were just materialistic stuffs, and I believe that God is going to replace all of them with much better items.

So this New Year is really a new chapter for me. And with all the losses I was proud to gain knowledge from each and every one of them. I know I am a better man, and will keep on getting better and better as time goes by.

^.^ Happy New Year!!!

Chirstmas Wish: Get Back to Blogging

Pahn — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 12:02:53 +0000

Merry Christmas everybody!!!

This year’s Yuletide season is a very different type of celebration for me. For months, I have never created a blog post which is the most essential part of having a blog. Being idle from blogging really gives you a hard time to get back. And since it is Christmas today, I can give an excuse to myself to create a blog post.

While I was not blogging, I tried to keep myself busy from looking for money to settle my upkeep. Thank God I was able to survive until today. I you knew, I never really have a stable income since I tried to make a living from the Internet. Before, I promised myself that I will only try to find a stable job after November if I will not find myself succeeding from this venture. So for weeks now I am still looking for a stable job. I have a hard time looking for one because I am really making sure that I am gonna end up to a good company. I just hope I get hired by January next month.

At the beginning of this post, I said that I am having a very different celebration this year. Why, it is because of the responsibility I have to carry for months. Last Sunday, I came across an accident and hit some one on the road while I was driving. They are two people and both needs some major healing process. One had broke his leg and the other had a pelvic fracture. And since I was involved with the accident, I have to take responsibility of the hospitalization of the both.

And it does not end there, because two nights ago, I was a victim of pickpocket and my precious cellphone was stolen. So now I lost my contacts and I seriously need a job to pay for the hospital.

But you know what’s strange, is that I never blamed God for all these bad luck that happened to me. I knew that at some point I became careless with my action. So I guess that the changes I am making on-line does not only stop there, because I have also realize what are the things I need to change for myself.

I know I am gonna make it out of these problems. I believe that God will provide everything that I would need for the better. Actually now I just realize that he allowed these things to happen and I can see that I am improving as time pass by.

And for my Christmas wish, I just want to get back from BLOGGING!!!

Separated Personal Blog Posts

Pahn — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 12:09:16 +0000

From now on, I will be blogging all personal or random posts here at my WordPress.com blog. I just finished transferring and cleaning all the links. I really hope I can update this frequently. But if I don’t one thing is for sure, as long as WordPress.com is online, I can blog here for the rest of my life.

Why did I decided to use this free hosted blog from WordPress, is because I want to focus on other niches to my other blogs. Some blogs I will use for sponsored post, while others will be helping my business.

I know I cannot do all at the same time, but I hope to connect with other bloggers here at WordPress more personally. ^^

ReVamp Coming Soon

Pahn — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 05:16:09 +0000

My revamping process took longer as I expected. Well for the last two months, I have been occupied with the stable client I have. Last night, it was decided for me to stop working with them, since I do not agree with the monitoring system so much. I am recorded only half the time I work.

It was a big lost if you talk about the assurance and stability of the income stream, but I am not that worried that much. My business turns into a freelance thing for the last two months, and I almost forgot about the affiliates I have. Like I said, I will be doing some remodeling of my business. I am going to take down some, and even thought of renaming the business.

I have to also face again my old clients whom I promised but never get backed to me. If my income does not go well, I may be forced to work again from an office before this year ends. For now, I will need to accept again sponsored post and paid links to earn some bucks. I also said before that I may not worry about SEO to my blog, but I may still show some since I have it flowing on my thoughts, but there will still be no worry.

Also, I am happy to be back on the track. My new blog design will be placed soon; I am just furnishing some codes for it. ^^,

ReVamp on the Process

Pahn — Sat, 15 Aug 2009 08:01:39 +0000

Hello everyone who still visits this site. It’s been a month since I posted about unveiling my true identity. Well, I guess I just have the need to get this post to update that I am in the process of revamping the site. Yes, a total make over. I am looking from the very first post to see what to keep, removing unneeded links and information. I have been redesigning everything from the scratch and I am using new codes/plugins for this site.

I just really hope that my personal keeping to share would be more useful to people who read this blog. I wanted to be a useful blogger, not just for my readers, but for myself as well. I will get back to the realm of blogosphere soon.

Talk to you soon ^^

The Real Pahn

Pahn — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 15:35:27 +0000

From now on, I will start showing the real me in this blog. Being inspired to meet other real bloggers, I will stick this to a more personal blog. I will start sharing what I feel. No more thinking of SEO for these personal stuffs. No more worrying about the page rank. They are going to be brought to other blogs I run for business. I will start conveying for more honest relationship with other bloggers online. And to begin with, who is really the man Pahn. What does he looks like? So I took this photo with my handy dandy mobile phone.

I hope to have a better and greater relationship with you fellow bloggers ^^

3 Simple Ways to Make You Feel Better

Pahn — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 08:17:42 +0000

There are always the time when we don’t feel good about something. It may be a result of a failure or rejection. It always provides a negative aura, and most of the time affects the people around us. I admit that I feel so down every other month. Why it is because I am always facing new challenges. But I fear not because I make sure that I can get my self-esteem back.

How do I manage to feel better, here is some of what I do:

Evaluate Yourself – Always try to look back what happened to realize why you felt that way. Try to stop blaming other people, and find a path of blaming yourself. But don’t be harsh to yourself, it is just good to do so that you can restrain from hating other people that may be involved. Once you know what you did wrong, you must definitely try to learn from it so that you can avoid from letting it happen again.

Talk To a Friend – I still don’t know any scientific explanation to this, but if there is a friend to listen, you can really feel better off. Sometimes, expressing is the solution to the worst problems we carry.

Eat Something Sweet – This helps a lot either. I know there is definitely a scientific explanation for this. Taking something sweet like chocolates or ice cream is causing some part of your body to feel better. Ask some experts, I don’t know how to explain that.

Saving the Best for Last

Pahn — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 11:08:08 +0000

I think is a stupid idea for me. In most competition, most competitors try to keep it simple in the beginning. They somehow want to save their best for the last part of the competition. It would just intend people to not do its best in all times if this is quoted. We should always be on our limit to grow. This is one thing I notice when working with foolish people who just came for the job, they don’t want to grow. They will just act up best when there is a boss or bonus to come.

From now on, I will be giving it my all!!!

The True Secret of Success

Pahn — Tue, 30 Jun 2009 06:10:26 +0000

I will not take this into a lecture article. We as human always wanted to try lots of things, but often fail. With those failures, we usually try to look up to other people who attain their success. Some say they are lucky, some say they are hard working and some even see them having good connections.

Well, luck, work ethics and connection can be learned by any idiots. They are process and not secrets. Anybody can attain them just as they please. But in order to grab everything, from the process to your goal, I just want you to remember two words.