Waking Up from a Bad Dream

I just woke up from a bad dream 4am this morning, it was a real pain that I have to go straight to the computer and tweet about it. then I decided to jog around.

Hi!, this is Pahn again, realizing that I have been wasting so much time in my life. With that dream, I have seen that I have been trying so hard in improving my life for that certain girl. And yes, she was in my dream. Let me quickly share that dream:

It was a regular day in the office few years from now. It was such a great scene at first thinking that she would be my co-worker, which I have to work with some project. I have always been wanting that to happen. So, I was about to sit with her for her presentation about a certain design. It felt the same way as we are awkward to one another… until she spill it out… **** is my boyfriend.. we had been together for 9 months now…. And I was really stunned by that scene… everything started moving slowly as she followed that line with a normal conversation.. As if she was hiding that secret from me and had the relief that she was able to say it already… and as she continues on her presentation, I may have fainted like I lost all the hopes in the world… and it followed of me waking up from the worst dream ever…

I knew that it was an impossible dream and it is not close to what is happening at the moment. But as I jog, I was thinking that what if in the future, that would happen. Success are just around the corner, and I am so close in telling her I love her. It will definitely ruin my life. And I am gonna go to my plan B (the bachelor).

Anyway, that goes as far from my love life. the reason I made this post is to remind me someday that this dream happened. And of course, one of the things that I have been wasting my life with is about not blogging. Yes, I have not been blogging for two years now. My last post was of January of 2010. I have been paying for my domains that I have not been using.

So, I just got to continue my plan of going in and start doing the things that I have to do, before everything is too late. As it goes on Blogging, Career and Love Life.

I Welcomed New Year with Nothing but My Heart

Happy New Year everybody!!!

This is really a very different start of the year for me. For this time, I am starting the year with absolutely no possession of any materialistic stuff. I have no cell phone, no driver’s license, no money, no good health, and not even the PC!!!

How did all this happen? Well, it started before Christmas, when I had been on a car accident, where my card hit some pedestrians on a highway. Starting that moment, I have been going into debts for the hospital bills and medicine assistance. Good thing the victims were alive and now well, they just need continuous medication. And since I do not have any savings, I have to borrow money due to this accident. And we still need to get the car fixed as well. So debts are running into my soul right now. Couple of days after the accident, I had been bitten by a dog, and the day after by as rat. So I am still uncertain about the health of my body. But I am still good as of today; I would just need some anti-rabies injection to make sure.

And it has not yet stopped there. A day before Christmas, I was a victim of pickpocket and my cell phone was taken from me on a bus. It was my N-Series phone which really cost me a lot. And after Christmas, we were able to settle the police report about the accident, and it was a good thing that I will not shoulder all the hospital cost and no criminal demands against me. But the bad thing about helping is that my license was confiscated and I have to bail it too.

With all of those things that happen, I still am not complaining and I know that they are all just a test for me. So I am getting ready to welcome the New Year with love and trust to God. Few hours before the New Year’s countdown, we have to clean our home and I have decided to adjust my computer wirings and clean all the dust. And I don’t know what the heck happened, that my computer suddenly won’t work again. I checked everything and found out the monitor got grounded and it had affected the CPU’s motherboard as well. And even if I want to curse out all these bad luck that happened to me, I took a silent prayer, and accepted it that it was all just a test.

I know all the things gone from me were just materialistic stuffs, and I believe that God is going to replace all of them with much better items.

So this New Year is really a new chapter for me. And with all the losses I was proud to gain knowledge from each and every one of them. I know I am a better man, and will keep on getting better and better as time goes by.

^.^ Happy New Year!!!

Chirstmas Wish: Get Back to Blogging

Merry Christmas everybody!!!

This year’s Yuletide season is a very different type of celebration for me. For months, I have never created a blog post which is the most essential part of having a blog. Being idle from blogging really gives you a hard time to get back. And since it is Christmas today, I can give an excuse to myself to create a blog post.

While I was not blogging, I tried to keep myself busy from looking for money to settle my upkeep. Thank God I was able to survive until today. I you knew, I never really have a stable income since I tried to make a living from the Internet. Before, I promised myself that I will only try to find a stable job after November if I will not find myself succeeding from this venture. So for weeks now I am still looking for a stable job. I have a hard time looking for one because I am really making sure that I am gonna end up to a good company. I just hope I get hired by January next month.

At the beginning of this post, I said that I am having a very different celebration this year. Why, it is because of the responsibility I have to carry for months. Last Sunday, I came across an accident and hit some one on the road while I was driving. They are two people and both needs some major healing process. One had broke his leg and the other had a pelvic fracture. And since I was involved with the accident, I have to take responsibility of the hospitalization of the both.

And it does not end there, because two nights ago, I was a victim of pickpocket and my precious cellphone was stolen. So now I lost my contacts and I seriously need a job to pay for the hospital.

But you know what’s strange, is that I never blamed God for all these bad luck that happened to me. I knew that at some point I became careless with my action. So I guess that the changes I am making on-line does not only stop there, because I have also realize what are the things I need to change for myself.

I know I am gonna make it out of these problems. I believe that God will provide everything that I would need for the better. Actually now I just realize that he allowed these things to happen and I can see that I am improving as time pass by.

And for my Christmas wish, I just want to get back from BLOGGING!!!

Separated Personal Blog Posts

From now on, I will be blogging all personal or random posts here at my WordPress.com blog. I just finished transferring and cleaning all the links. I really hope I can update this frequently. But if I don’t one thing is for sure, as long as WordPress.com is online, I can blog here for the rest of my life.

Why did I decided to use this free hosted blog from WordPress, is because I want to focus on other niches to my other blogs. Some blogs I will use for sponsored post, while others will be helping my business.

I know I cannot do all at the same time, but I hope to connect with other bloggers here at WordPress more personally. ^^

ReVamp Coming Soon

My revamping process took longer as I expected. Well for the last two months, I have been occupied with the stable client I have. Last night, it was decided for me to stop working with them, since I do not agree with the monitoring system so much. I am recorded only half the time I work.

It was a big lost if you talk about the assurance and stability of the income stream, but I am not that worried that much. My business turns into a freelance thing for the last two months, and I almost forgot about the affiliates I have. Like I said, I will be doing some remodeling of my business. I am going to take down some, and even thought of renaming the business.

I have to also face again my old clients whom I promised but never get backed to me. If my income does not go well, I may be forced to work again from an office before this year ends. For now, I will need to accept again sponsored post and paid links to earn some bucks. I also said before that I may not worry about SEO to my blog, but I may still show some since I have it flowing on my thoughts, but there will still be no worry.

Also, I am happy to be back on the track. My new blog design will be placed soon; I am just furnishing some codes for it. ^^,

ReVamp on the Process

Hello everyone who still visits this site. It’s been a month since I posted about unveiling my true identity. Well, I guess I just have the need to get this post to update that I am in the process of revamping the site. Yes, a total make over. I am looking from the very first post to see what to keep, removing unneeded links and information. I have been redesigning everything from the scratch and I am using new codes/plugins for this site.

I just really hope that my personal keeping to share would be more useful to people who read this blog. I wanted to be a useful blogger, not just for my readers, but for myself as well. I will get back to the realm of blogosphere soon.

Talk to you soon ^^

The Real Pahn

From now on, I will start showing the real me in this blog. Being inspired to meet other real bloggers, I will stick this to a more personal blog. I will start sharing what I feel. No more thinking of SEO for these personal stuffs. No more worrying about the page rank. They are going to be brought to other blogs I run for business. I will start conveying for more honest relationship with other bloggers online. And to begin with, who is really the man Pahn. What does he looks like? So I took this photo with my handy dandy mobile phone.

I hope to have a better and greater relationship with you fellow bloggers ^^

3 Simple Ways to Make You Feel Better

There are always the time when we don’t feel good about something. It may be a result of a failure or rejection. It always provides a negative aura, and most of the time affects the people around us. I admit that I feel so down every other month. Why it is because I am always facing new challenges. But I fear not because I make sure that I can get my self-esteem back.

How do I manage to feel better, here is some of what I do:

Evaluate Yourself – Always try to look back what happened to realize why you felt that way. Try to stop blaming other people, and find a path of blaming yourself. But don’t be harsh to yourself, it is just good to do so that you can restrain from hating other people that may be involved. Once you know what you did wrong, you must definitely try to learn from it so that you can avoid from letting it happen again.

Talk To a Friend – I still don’t know any scientific explanation to this, but if there is a friend to listen, you can really feel better off. Sometimes, expressing is the solution to the worst problems we carry.

Eat Something Sweet – This helps a lot either. I know there is definitely a scientific explanation for this. Taking something sweet like chocolates or ice cream is causing some part of your body to feel better. Ask some experts, I don’t know how to explain that.

Saving the Best for Last

I think is a stupid idea for me. In most competition, most competitors try to keep it simple in the beginning. They somehow want to save their best for the last part of the competition. It would just intend people to not do its best in all times if this is quoted. We should always be on our limit to grow. This is one thing I notice when working with foolish people who just came for the job, they don’t want to grow. They will just act up best when there is a boss or bonus to come.

From now on, I will be giving it my all!!!

The True Secret of Success

I will not take this into a lecture article. We as human always wanted to try lots of things, but often fail. With those failures, we usually try to look up to other people who attain their success. Some say they are lucky, some say they are hard working and some even see them having good connections.

Well, luck, work ethics and connection can be learned by any idiots. They are process and not secrets. Anybody can attain them just as they please. But in order to grab everything, from the process to your goal, I just want you to remember two words.

DON’T QUIT!!!

Keeping the Old Posts

Yes, I have decided to just keep my old posts here. Thank you for the input from some of the commenter from my previous post. I think this will remain as my personal blog. Other niche blog can just focus from the rest of my blogs.

I was actually thinking to make this a blog that gives tips and advices from human relationship. But I guess I should just post those tips randomly and I can still add personal stuffs. I just hope you would like my upcoming advices. See yah!!

How Should I Start Over?

I wanted to stick this blog to one niche. I wanted to keep discussing one topic. But I cannot decide how to start all over again. Should I be deleting all the past post, or keep some of them. Will I keep the sponsored post, or just hide them? Would it be better to clean up the categories? I want to apply the tricks of a great blogger to this blog, but I am being bothered by lots of worries.

For being inactive in the blogging world, I was surprised how my blog friends evolved their blogging skills. I did not realize they would take making money from blog seriously. I have been trying to learn the techniques for a long time, but cannot apply what I learn immediately.

I hope I can hear inputs from you guys. Should I reset the whole blog or just continue to imply posts?

Did I Get an A (H1N1) Virus?

We are not particularly sure. But I know I got sick because I was assisting some sick friends this weekend. Sunday afternoon as we travel home, I started to feel drowsy, and confirmed I got a fever when by night. I strictly isolate myself even from my family to avoid the risk of passing the sickness to them.

I never really panicked even some of my friends were starting to worry. They have to worry because 6 people in the group were affected with sickness. I did not even bother to have a checkup because I don’t want to be isolated for 10days. If it happens, it will affect lots of our services and activities.

Nobody bothered to confirm if it was the spreading virus of A (H1N1). We just had fevers but all feel so strong the same way. I am already in the recovering phase now, and I think I only got a fever for about 30-35 hours. I just hope I could catch up with the tasks I am not able to do.

Going Back to Basics

Wow!!! How long has it been since I last care to blog? That’s half a month according to my last personal post. And damn, I really missed the blogosphere big time! Like I said from my last personal post, my blogging challenge has failed. Even I was not able to proceed with my own challenges. Well, it was because I really was not able to give much time in blogging.

But behind that failure with blogging, at least I was able to find progress with my business. After 5 months, I was able to start getting clients and started some project. I also found some people who are willing to be part of my company. If you wonder what my business is, it’s a web solution provider and I named it Castleague Ltd.Co. You can check the website now, but we are still on the process of improving it.

I also found another social life a far from the PC. Well, they are not actually new people to me, but the things I do are all not what I did while I was still working as an employee. But hey, why did I say that I am Going Back to Basics? Well, it is for my life investment. I said basic because it is totally going to be the basics.

If some of you know me before, I usually have a long hair. But now, I already got a cleaner haircut. It happened in an instance, but I try to look at it as a sign. It means to me that it is time for me now to get a new job. Yes, I will have to apply again from any job I would like to do. But this time, I must go to an entry level. I want to step in to a different industry where I dreamed about before I met the internet.

If you would ask about my business, I am still going to continue it. If I have enough budgets, I may hire people or find an apprentice to look after simple task of this business. About my blogging, I can still continue to blog even if I do a lot of work. But I am really looking forward to have a laptop or Mac book soon. I know I can do my business anywhere as long as I have a laptop.

Behind some failures of what’s happening to my life, I know I still love it the long run. And with the things happening, I have this quote kept in my soul:

We are tested with major changes, delayed promises, impossible problems, unanswered prayers, undeserved criticism & even senseless strategies.

But the good news is that God wants us to pass the test of life.

So He never allows the tests we face be greater than the strength He gave us.

Go Pahn, Go!!!

Blog more!!! Embrace yourself to the best reward that may come. Do not stop striving for it!!! You can do it!!!

Yes! I am cheering for myself. I just had a peek of the greatest reward that I could get if I continue this online journey. That reward is far greatest of just money. It is everything to me, all the things I asked for in just one simple package.

I know I can achieve it. This is where my path belongs. Don’t get blinded by the problems you’re facing. Don’t get disappointed of the failure you are getting. I can see the goal to this challenge, even if I am struggling with so much pain getting there.

Your Choco Crave Tells Your Age

Just found this somewhere. So why don’t you try and let us prove if it works.

I tried this to myself and it works. So don’t scroll down and cheat cheaters.

- First of all, pick the number of times a week that you would like to have chocolate (more than once but less than 10).
- Multiply this number by 2 (just to be bold)
- Add 5
- Multiply it by 50 — I’ll wait while you get the calculator
- If you have already had your birthday this year add 1759. If you haven’t, add 1758.
- Now subtract the four digit year that you were born.
- You should have a three digit number

The first digit of this was your original number (i.e., how many times you want to have chocolate each week).

The next two numbers will be YOUR AGE!!!

THIS IS THE ONLY YEAR (2009) IT WILL EVER WORK, SO SPREAD IT AROUND WHILE IT LASTS…

How To Feel Better

Well, we often feel bad sometimes. And if we don’t do something about it, we end up somewhere bad. So I try to list simple thing we can do to feel better on those kind of situation:

1.  Talk to your self – it is not really bad talking to your self once in a while. It always helps you to evaluate better on problems and even personal growth. So try doing it before you go to sleep. It helps
2. Just do what you want to do – most of us feels down because we always mind what other people would say. But learning to ignore comments to do what makes you happy can surely make you feel better all the times.
3. Appreciate your skills – Look forward to what you already posses. More often we don’t notice our simple talent that others would want to have. Just try to appreciate them and use it once in a while. You will never know you really have a passion for that skill you usually neglect.
4. Learn how to laugh - Laughter is the way of true love. Seriously, just laugh to about anything. It helps get the conversation going if there is a simple joke on a serious conversation. Civilized people always know where this would be limited and can understand a good laugh.
5. Breathe deeply – Scientific research have proved it. I don’t know how to prove it, but deep breathing can help you release tension. Losing tension helps you feel better.
6. Do some movement – doing some exercise keeps your blood going. If you notice stretching can help you relax a bit because it lets the blood flow to those veins. What more if you really let them flow regularly. Just have a walk or jump twenty times.
7. Do something good – I can bet that if you try to help someone with no intension, you will feel glad. This is proven by everyone.
8. Hangout with friends – do I have to explain more. Being with other people can help you forget what you usually do. So if you have stress at work or school, unwinding with other people can get you going the next day.

I Don't Want To Do What I Must

Damn!!! I must now cut my hair short. Grr… Of the entire entire test this is what I hate most. But of course I have to do it. I have to get my hair short. Why it is so many people in the Philippines cannot accept guys with long hair?

One of the biggest reason I hate the Philippines. People are so absurd!!! Is it hurting them!!! I am just so pissed!!! Argh!!!! >.<

Sacrificing For a Month

I need to sacrifice something for a while. I just had a thought of what I choose them to be. I will not be watching movies online and no playing of games online.

I know I can do this for one month. I haven’t really watched any movies for few weeks since I started playing a game. But I will start to continue not playing games either. My last game was last Friday, April 17. I just have to make sure I will not play any game until after a month.

I am just going to focus on my job. I know there will be a great return for this sacrifice stuff. Some sort of a reward. I am hoping it will be a success for the business, but I will just accept what ever it can be.

I am just sharing it so I can remember when I can start doing them again, he he he

It's Not Miracle – It's Love

“Seeing is not believing, believing is seeing”

Well, I call it trust. I have been on a lot of obstacles almost each day. And this phase of my life is the really the worst. When I start bluffing that I am Broke few weeks ago, I literally mean it. Even until now, I have not got a single cent in me. As I said the other day, we were suppose to get our electricity be cut off. But out of trust, I am still surviving this online world.

If people would logically check how my life is changing, everything is not according to plan. Even if I still plan everything perfectly, they are always not deployed accordingly. I learned to live with it because in the end, I always meet my goals. But if I do something and I do it for God, you are the one who will say things happen with miracles (well, we need a person to person talk so I can share it to you with perfect feelings).

Not many know, but I do join some activities that may concern helping out a spiritual conversion. A punk would call it “Kulto”, but the truth is that it is “Cool Too”. He he, well it is not a cult okay, but something underground world wide that someday shall be recognize by all. Extra ordinary beyond the truth I should say. Anyway, it’s a good thing and we are directed by God.

Things happening to many of us can some how be called a miracle, but those are really not miracles to me. For many years I have experienced this kind of phenomenon, I am certain it is all happening out of Love. This is one main reason why there is a saying, “Love conquers all”.

Well everything is hard to explain via blog post or any well written article, but I can stand my dignity for this reason forever even after death. If you read how I our electricity got saved, I am certain that Electricity Guy felt some love for helping us even we are not asking for it.

Wow, I wish I could write all this things I am feeling. I hope time would come where I can do them. And this Blog shall be one witness. He he he

I'm Yours Lyrics – Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I’m trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I’ll be giving it my bestest
And nothing’s going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some

I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment babay sing with me
We’re just one big family
And It’s our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won’t hesitate no more, not yours
It cannot wait I’m sure
There’s no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I’m yours

Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear

I’ve been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I’m be saying is there ain’t no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It’s what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find that the sky is yours
Please don’t, please don’t, please don’t
There’s no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This oh this this is out fate, I’m yours!

I Know It Was His Support

For the love of God, I know he is supporting me all the way. I am crying with tear yesterday afternoon because I felt his all out support in me. Yes, it sounds weird, but it is true.

I have always been splattering about getting into business as an entrepreneur. I am almost six months of no stable job and my budget was all gone out. I am just glad that I can still fit my self in to my parents and get a place to sleep and eat. Since my usage of computer I must pay the bills for electricity.

I have tried to explain them that I am having a business with the computer, but they don’t care. They wanted me to give them money so that they would believe I am doing something. Since it was not that easy to start up, all my cash and bank accounts have no more money.

But I still trust my self. I am my only support. Many times I pray to God complaining this kind of path I choose, but I know he is good with it. I am a very logical person, and what I see is what I get goes for me. At this state, I have nothing else but my computer and website and skills to get me going. I just blog and offer what I can do to other people.

But still I am a human being. And like I said, even my parents don’t support what I do because internet is never heard to them. For the last month, I was not able to pay the electric bills. Even if I want to pay, I have nothing even a single cent. We were already over due.

Yesterday morning I just lunched There We Space Hosting to have an additional venture. By noon, I was doing my daily Entrecard Dropping. While I was drop hopping, a guy from the electric company showed up informing that we need to pay up or they will cut out electricity. I was in the middle of my dropping as he talks to me while my parents don’t care.

How To Work Self Discipline

Having self-discipline is always my problem. Today, I try listing the things I need to accomplish this week. But still I get to waste few hours of my time. This is also one reason why I improve slowly. So, I try to search the net how to gain self discipline.

As I read thru them, I realize that I know all the stuffs they are saying. Will power, persistence, hard work, and so on and so forth. But all these aspects are supposed to be what is in the person already. For me, I know I have them all, but why do I still lack discipline.

I try to have a thought out of them as I surf the net. And I remember that I was not able to practice it when I was still in school. Yes, from school. If you try to wonder why some students got high grades, they are usually giving time to study everyday. It is like a routine given to them by their parents as they grow up. For me, I didn’t have that.

But, I know it is never too late to get it. And for a grown up like me, I needed some constant reminder. So, I decided to print out the task I must do. Then I have it posted where I can see them all the time I am at my working table. I will also be printing out a small strip of paper with a motto and stick it at my PC monitor. This way, it will be easy for me to get reminded.

But, I am still thinking of what motto should it be. Should it sound like, “Hey a**hole, Get back to WORK!!!” or “Remember you need the MONEY!!!” or “STOP playing around,, DUMBA!!!”.

Well, I know these types of words can motivate me. I don’t really like any boring phrase from a book. So, I wonder what would you put if you decide to do this?

Easter Means New Life

I am living a new life again!!! This time it is probably a broken life, I am broke as in I have no cash.

He he, I’m just kidding. For this past week, I went to a recreation of Holy Week. I am not a religious person, but I believe and serve God. Whenever this time of the year pass by, we were tough that we were given another new life. I wonder what is new in me, he he he.

Anyway, it was really amazing to actually figure out how to face challenges in life. I hope I can narrow down a guideline that I use and share it here on my blog. Trying to get back to earn some money online is quite hard. But I need strict discipline to myself. I got to remove the game I installed for my improvement.

I am also going to open up a different web hosting service and include a free plan in it. Perhaps I would have to maximize what I have today and use them all well good. I am also getting tempted to try out illegal drugs to help me stay up with my works. I just hope I won’t be going to that wrong direction.

But what ever this new life is ahead of me, I am always sure that they are going to be for the better. I just want to get pass this phase of being broke. ^^

Back To Work

Yep! I am back to work for my self. I am more refreshed than ever. Knowledge overflowing with confidence and everything can still fit right.

For few days I was out of town to a recreation of the Holy Week season. I met new friends, heard new stuffs, and even gain more confidence. I also give away calling cards to introduce my unique business for them. All knew its going to be a success, but I know there is still far way to get there.

So far, so good, I am still broke from cash. I would also need to get some cash for the span of two weeks. I just hope I get them fast. I think I should also remove the game I installed from my PC, it has been wasting so much of my time.

I’ll Just Catch-up the Challenge

If you are one of the serious blogger who want to make success in blogging, you probably know about Problogger. And if you do follow him today, you probably know about the 31 Day to Build a Better Blog. I actually signed up to give it a go. Hopefully I would be able to manage earning good from my blog after this challenge.

Today is jut the 2nd day of the task. The very first was really something great about making an Elevator Pitch for your own blog. This blog, I kind of make a new tagline. Anything Goes w/ Pahn – everything is shared w/ love…

I know it sounds sloppy to attract investors or sponsors, but I wanted to attract a wider range of readers from the niche this blog started. I know me most of the time sound like a business guru here, but it was just an expression of what was happening to me. Since I have new blogs, I will try my best to just leave there all the entrepreneurship talks, and just try to manage posting lovable experience, and maybe more of tips.

I have always been telling that ever since, but I never really got to do it. But this time, I will be more discipline in applying those concepts this very blog.

Like I said in the title, I will just catch up. Not just to the challenge I join, but as well to the readers I am hoping to grab attention with. I’ll catch up with the challenge next week for my other blogs because I will be out for few days. But I will still try to have a scheduled post for the days I will be gone. And I will also catch up to my readers to be able to give them more useful content that hopefully could help them in some part of their life.

Before I end this, I just wanted to hear some inputs from some of you. Would you think a Love story sequence is good enough to share from this very blog, or I should just try to create another blog with a different domain for it? He he, I just felt like I wanted to have a story someday that will be like Twilight or Harry Potter. lol

Hunted To Love

What would you do if you are trying to surprise your crush by buying her flowers for Valentines, but then she is with you when you are buying it and she have no idea it will be for her?

I just had a funny dream, it could be long but I will still share it.

There was this girl who I was trying to avoid because I was not successful getting close to her many years ago, teenage years. Her folks and friends pushed me away from her because they think I was not good enough for her. So I have decided to stay away and moved on with my life to have the best out of it.

After few years, with unexpected situations, we had a chance to work together. I was a different person and got known for playing around with just any girls. The issue I got involve from her was already forgotten, plus we are already adults so maturity runs around. Being awkward to one another, we still both manage to act normal, but I am not showing any prospective. One reason is because I was embarrass with what I did few years ago.

There was this new guy I work a lot with, but this guy is interested to a different girl. I got closed to this new guy because he shared his situation to his girl and was having the same experience I had few year ago, family and friends were not agreeing to them on a relationship. So with the trust and understanding, I had informed him about the same experience I got. I was like close to this guy because we got the same experience with girls.

At first you would think they were together because of how close they were as family friends, but the guy told me already that they have no chance of being together which is why I’m his good buddy. We went to a resort, and the season probably is like Valentines Day, I don’t know why it is what I think from the dream. I was well known for hooking up with different girls I meet, but I never really pursue on getting serious to anyone. I was still hoping to get to this girl I want from the very beginning.

The girl I want have no luck with other guys, maybe she had a high standards, or it is just really hard to get close to her family. She is somehow different to other girls, so she was not close with many them. Back in the resort, my buddy and I went out and found someone selling bouquet of flowers. My buddy decided to get his girl a set, which interest me to do the same. We were like hoping to surprise them. So he had his pick and I want to find the best and biggest one since I had the money for it. I was like so rich in my dreams.

To our surprise, this girl I wanted to give the flowers to pass by while I was picking the flowers. My buddy already had his pick and kept his flowers for the surprise later when we get back to the resort. I was looking stupid because I am the only one looking at the flowers to buy as she arrives and hangout with us. It was just a dream but I am feeling nervous with her. She had no idea I am picking something to surprise her.

From the look of this girl, she was hoping someone would actually give her flowers too that day since it is Valentines. And my freaking buddy was like whispering to tease me saying, “aminin mo na..” which means I should already admit I still have the feelings for her. I was so freaking out from the inside that time. The girl was like envious because she thought I am just going to give it to some other girls.

It was just a dream, so I have to cut it here because I woke up getting in my conscience. That girl is still waiting for me.

Well, many part of this story is happening in my real life. Actually, I was with the people in the story before I went to sleep. Probably the reason I dreamed about them. Should I stop playing around with girls and get serious with this one I have feelings for? I don’t even know who she is. Plus I think there was a part in the beginning of the dream where I am having sex with a random bitch at the resort.

Several hours before I meet up with these guys, I saw the trailer of “Ghost of Girlfriends Past”. It is like mocking me. Will my love life end out that way? Maybe there is no Ghost taking me to the past, but something is hunting me. One of it was this dream I had.

This subconscious of mine really creep me out this time. But I hope it will be a great inspiration to bring ^^

My Blog is Getting Better

As you could see, I have a new unique theme. The idea came from serious practice just this week. And I am hoping to get better and better with blogging. Like I said yesterday, I looked back over the grammars from my whole blog from the very beginning. This helped me improve my self not just my blog.

Soon I may have this theme available for freebie. I still have lots of ideas for a theme, but I have to do them one step at a time. I just got an inspiration from someone who is so good on creating details with her art, so I’m trying to apply them with my work.

Actually, I still don’t know what to name this theme; maybe you can give a suggestion. Also you may ask me for a free unique theme for your blog. I may just want to fill up my idle time to do designs from now on.

I still have to do some minor tweaking with this theme for the sidebar and advertisements, but I can finish that later. Freebies will be coming out soon as well, so better watch out for that. I just need to find a better flow of income.

Speaking of income, if you really feel you want my service for a design or even coding or web developing, you may contact me at Castleague Ltd.Co. Yes, that is my official business. I am not marketing it for now, I know that,  but after the Holy Week I must boost to achieve my target in one month.

Probably being broke in cash woke up the laziness in me. I just hope this will continue until I achieve all the goals I aim. And since I started from this blog, I would never of course neglect this blog. I have other new blogs running at the moment, and I wanted to finish a design for them over the weekend. Hopefully you could support me, or maybe you would like to work with me. Because I am giving commission to the referral clients you could give. I am going to release the information soon, so just watch out for it. ^^

Let us all become a better blogger!!!

Looking Back the Grammars

Yesterday I did a major review to this blog, from the very beginning of the post, to the newest one. It took me about 9 hours. I know I am getting better with my writing skills, and looking back to the very first post I have, which was two years ago, made me see the big improvement of my life, not just in blogging. I don’t say I am that perfect, but I was proud to take one step at a time. The old posts are proofs that I have decided to be a developer and designer someday. Now, I can do some of that developer task and I am already beginning to enhance my design skills.

I also actually found my hidden post where I discussed about the only girl I have ever truly loved. It’s so hidden, only two bloggers were able to read it. It is hidden because I don’t want her to know I am stalking, because I do. I am not so sure if she will find it sweet, or ridiculously insane. I wonder what would be your reaction if you have a stalker.

And also looking back reminded me about the parties. Oh I really missed those days. I have my boss or her girlfriend which was my friend treating me at always. I never blogged about one thing, that my birthday last year that same girl having a new boyfriend, and her new boyfriend treated me a party. And I never thought it was my birthday until I realized it. It had actually the same effect this year, but not perfectly the same as last year. I was celebrating with other people, and I don’t even have to waste my money for them. That is so funny; I just realize it by now. I wonder how I am going to celebrate next year.

One last thing to share, I have “I am Broke” post last year just like what I posted few days ago. Don’t bother checking because I erased that. But it’s like a proof that things go all year round. He he he

Anyway, this is one effect if you are having a personal blog. You get to mesmerize and recall all the memories you have. It’s given me strength to actually continue on what I am doing. Even if it is harder this time, I know I have gone this far. ^^

I'm Was Not Prepared For April's Fool

Last year, I tried to spook some of my readers from a simple searching game. I also promised I will be having something again this year. I guess with some unsuccessful aspect of my life online, my April fool’s gig was unsuccessful again.

But then again as I type this, I just realize, if someone remembered me doing an April’s fool last year and is expecting something yesterday, I have fooled him. He he he, I guess I have no victim for that.

Anyway, it is not that important I guess. I just hope I can execute the entire thing I was hoping to do once I’m successful.

I Want to Practice SEO

If some of you know, I am starting new blogs. At the moment, I am still creating contents for them so I will not mention it here for a while. I don’t know what came over me, but I tried to search about SEO and Page Rank. Every website owner who wanted to earn worry about these issues, to be honest, I really neglected the process.

A while ago, I was reading the basics of both SEO and PR. And as I understand them, everything fails from my own blog. So, I decide that I am going to focus it to my other blogs. I thought that just by content I can go into SEO someday, but I never realize that my template has something to do about it as well.

I’m just glad to run through this again. I am sure it’s going to help me with my web developing business as I know now how to create some SEO friendly themes.

Do you ever wonder to do something about your SEO and PR?

I Am Broke!!!

I have no more cash!!! I hope someone would give me. I have been investing my last money for my business enhancement. I don’t even know how I could pay the internet bills. Well, I know I can get my internet for free, but I would still need to pay them.

My business gladly is starting smooth. So far I am looking for clients to make me continue my life here online. I know I have funds that would sustain me for 6 more months, but I need a big fund after that. I know I have upcoming payments, but those are until next month.

Well, crap the hell. I will just not get out of the house or buy anything. I have nothing to spend on. But I know I need funding to find clients. Oh well, I know I can get thru this.

How Did I Start Blogging?

I have been blogging for quit a more than a year now. And now I try to manage another blog. There I want to share more of my experience and challenges on how I want to make money. I know I do share some of them here, but this is a more personal blog.

One of my articles there I share How Did I Start Blogging. It will be for my journal entry and reference for the future. Who know I may forget those details, He he he

Take Things A Day At A Time

Take things a day at a time – is Bob Parson’s rule number 6 on his 16 Rules.

Who is Bob Parson? Well, he is the CEO founder of Godaddy. But I’m not going to talk about him here. I just want to share one of his rules which I am really glad taking part of me.

Take things a day at a time – No matter how difficult your situation is, you can get through it if you don’t look too far into the future, and focus on the present moment. You can get through anything one day at a time.

I know it’s already been 2 and half years since I started wanting to earn online. It just started from company research to personal research and studies. I did not really have any money and skills to invest, but I always claim that I have all the time and brains to use. When I started blogging due to influence, I really have no idea how I can gain that continuous income on my own. People I personally know who blogs were hired by big companies, and that was my only guess.

Gladly I met Aisha who started to share how she does it. For the first year, I only earn less than a thousand pesos, or $20USD. I have to invest my job earned money for my online career. When I quit a stable job, I have prepared myself for the worst and just executed my plans. I thought I can do all I made in my to-do list for a month only. But it shows up that everything are done slow.

I certainly take one thing a day. I thought I was getting nowhere. For 5 months of unsure income, I am now starting to see and get something. At least all my existing sites can be maintained 6 more months. Now, I just have to find money for another year of upkeep for my business sites before that time comes.

If you did not miss any of my post, I have just opened my Web Developing business a week ago. It is named Castleague Ltd.Co. Before, I was just planning it ahead. But now, it is operational. Today, I am trying to gather as much clients as I could with no advertising yet. Since it is a starting serious business, I aim looking for clients via referral today. So far so good, and my efforts are paying off.

One step at a time is really my style even I don’t notice. Because I just bluff and bluff about them before. And now, it is a new start again for a more exciting adventure!!!

Just Add Friends

I know I look so snob with most of the people I talk online. Well, it is because I am so busy with the things I do. But if I got the idle time, I always initiate the conversation.

I remember the time when I have to work faking my friendship to the clients. Yeah it sucks, and I even sometimes act like a girl to please them. And now since I am on my own work, I can be myself all the time I want.

Plurk is one of the social networks I made new friends. And today, I decided to follow almost a thousand plurkers that I don’t even know. It is one medium to help me increase my network, and some points that site gives. Even I won’t be able to remember each of them, I know some of them would stand out for me to remember.

So I welcome all of them if they decide to drop here on my blog. I hope we all be active together online ^^

Suntok Sa Buwan

Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin ko’y pinagtakpan
Makasama ka’y suntok sa buwan

‘Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga’y iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan

Hindi ko ‘to gusto
Pero ‘wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika’y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin

‘Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
‘Di habang buhay ika’y aantayin

Ito’y aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso ko’y ‘di nabibitin

How To Blog If You Suck At Writing?

I honestly came on this topic from Copyblogger by Jonathan Morrow. It was quite interesting when he explained his advice from his experience. I literally do adopt the situation he shared. So I realize why not share my own experience from his tips.

1. Stop Trying to Do What You Can’t

When I was a kid, I have always thought of becoming a rock star. I was inspired by the way they have been living their life according to what I heard. The luxury can be there, VIP treatment, and even the girls. But I never really have a talent when it comes to music. I tried to be a frustrated singer, drummer and guitarist, and I still am not good at any of it. Since I need to get myself involve with the rat race, I got trained from many different fields of the job. My experience thought me of different skill that was not connected to any music talent. Until the day I have learned about the internet industry. Since I got different experience, I am trying to combine them all to fit together and find my spot online. I am not dreaming to be a rock star anymore, but I can continue to aim in getting what the rock stars have in this different field.

2. Craft a Superior Experience

After few years of working with the rat race, I was able to realize that I got trained in the marketing jobs even I don’t want to. I work different fields as well and the last stable job is under an internet company. Since my thinking was flexible, I was able to combined all of what I know doing. So, I decided to have a business combining all of them. It was a hard thing to start, but I believe it can be a success. Plus I also realize that I am best in managing on project, so I want now to be my own boss.

3. Choose the Medium where you’re the Most Interesting

I have a lot of interest in producing something and helping people. I also love the fashion of computer technology. And since I love learning most of what computer can produce, I decide to open my own web developing business, blogging on the side, and helping people add knowledge. Combining them all, I know I will never get bored on what I aim to enhance.

Now the title suggest how to blog if you suck at writing. I would just conclude that you continue to blog, but don’t expect to earn from it. Maybe if you blog more often, someday you will not suck on writing anymore.

A Fun Day For A War

This morning, I decided to reconstruct the grammar structures for my blog so that I can get more clients on writing projects. I was surprised when Aisha, my lovable friend who introduces me to blogging who now calls herself Ms. Candy Blush, told me about someone who accused her for being a Bogus Seller online.

When I checked the details and posts from this issue, I can’t stop but to actually laugh on what’s happening. I have known Aisha for about 2 years now and I know very well what problems and headache she may cause. I became her problem solver in most technical problem she encounters. And soon, I am planning to get involve on a true business that earns with her.

She is also a well known blogger in the girl’s niche of the Philippines. And because of that, she started to have an online shop of her own. This morning, I got involved to her issue in one of the buyers she had. I don’t want to give any comment on it, but with the information she had, I have to stand out for my friend so I left a comment.

I just said what I thought, and believed that the issue will be resolved by themselves. But these girls were unable to stop. Of course as a trusted friend, Aisha has to tell me about the new posts proclaiming some defense. So I said to drop it and give back the payment to not make things worst. I can’t help but to read the defensive post, and with that action, I have felt the urge to defend Aisha completely. I just hated the way they have to handle it.

The issue made me forgot what I task myself to do today online. I was not productive today, but I am glad to have talked to new potential clients. Of course, I have to also mention that I think I will like the new system Entecard shall implement within the next week. Then I just browse and drool myself again to the apple store that I haven’t done for a long time. I now want a Mini MAC too ^^

Well even I was not so productive, the day was fun because of the issue. Oh well, just check for Candy Blush if you want to know the issue. I am not interested to link non-sense site owners.

I also have to add that last year I also encountered an online war from a forum. Because of the incident, I was wondering how that site is doing today. So I searched it again but I found that the site is not active anymore. They keep accusing that I was the worst blogger, but I didn’t mind. I was just beginning to blog that time anyway, and I had fun of with the traffic. They were so insensitive, but where are they now? Hahaha

Oh well, I think this incident today made me relax a bit for over focusing on my work. I know Aisha’s old enough to handle it, just not sure from the other side.

What Is ABDC?

America’s Best Dance Crew

That is what ABDC stands for. Many Filipino doesn’t know about this contest. Why, because it is in America. If you remember The Jabbawockies, they were the first to have the title three years ago. I actually didn’t know about this until hearing about the Beat Freaks.

Beat Freaks is an all girls dance crew who made it to the final two. And I really do like them as I said from my previous post. They are showing the whole season 3 from their and that’s where I fell in-love with the BFs!!! Check out one of the thriller video from youtube…

Freak Your Dreams!!

It was a week ago when Quest Crew won the ABDC Season 3. And I still wanted the Beat Freaks to win. But nevertheless, even Quest Crew grab the title, I am sure that we will be hearing more of The Beat Freaks!! 

I just love it when they say to Freak Your Dreams!! And I’m taking that advice. 

Even the team is a group of individuals where each has professional careers as dancer, they truly deserve the honor. 

I love dancing ever since. I did hope to have dancing as my career. But I never had a chance to improve in that field. But I know I am still going to freak my dream by becoming unique on what I do.

I'm Gonna Have A Hot Japanese Wife That Dance

I Love You Rino Nakasone!!!

I really love Rino, and I just found out that she has a Filipino husband!!! I was freaking first knowing she’s married, but got me high up knowing he’s a Filipino!!!

And it made me remember that I wanted to have a hot Japanese woman that dances for a wife!!!

I really love Japanese beauty. I want a woman who rocks. I want a girl that can dance great. And I can live with a lady of humor. And can be sexy with glasses.

Maybe she doesn’t have to be exactly like Rino. But if she can be hot as Rino, she’s my wife to be ^^

Maybe she doesn’t have to be exactly like Rino. But if she can be hot as Rino, she’s my wife to be ^^ 

 

 

 

 

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Having Another Blog

I am starting to edit my other blog. At the moment, it is sub-domain under pahn.wordpress.com while I am waiting for my main domain to be released, pahn.com. I am hoping to have the domain by the end of this month since it was backordered last year. The post I am creating shall be in the past. This is to enable getting more quality from that blog. I am aiming to construct a more clean categories and tags. Ands since it is hosted with wordpress.com, they say it will easily gain Page Rank.

My Rap Tribute To The Master Rapper – Francis M

Francis Magalona has been an icon for me not just an artist, but as well as a true man. He was my first idol way back from pre-school. Many of his composition helped me gain belief in my self as I grew up. Even thought he was not able to meet who I am, I am still considering him as a big part of my life thru his influence. He is also one of the big deals that pushed me to get into business. And now he is gone, here is a simple composition I wrote that I intend to rap if given a chance to give tribute to him. If there are any rappers out there who can record this in music, please do, I’d be glad to share it with a tune and voice.

Here’s for the Master Rapper:

Kahit ako hinde magaling gumawa ng tula
Pipilitin ko pa rin na maging makata
Lalagyan ng tono para maging kakaiba
Baka maialay sa idolo ng madla

Francis M or Kiko ang tawag natin sa kanya
At isa na ako sa libo libong tagahanga
Musician, host, at pag aartista.
negosyante, photographer pati na rin bloggista

Sa dinamidami ng kanyang inaalay na talento
Saludo talga ako dahil sya lang ang may puso
At ng aking marinig ang kanyang pagkawala
Para bang sinuntok ako sa aking muka

I am not like Mr Francis M
I could not even sing a song from end to end
But with the blaze from the heart I’ll do it again
From all the memories he left, he made me a man

I still remember the time when I first heard rapping beat
I performed at school and I was six
I may not sang that song but I dance along
To the beat of Francis M, I gave it my all

Then I grew up, hip hop aside
Cause I work and I plan and I realize
Everything is posible if you have your heart
And Francis M is one who pulled me from the dark

So I said to myself, I wanna work with you someday
I will train hard and play hard so I can show what I say
But I guess now it will not be that easy
Cause you’re gone… and you made me more busy

So I move on, knowing he is one of my icon
If the net is my place, I’m gonna play it on
If he used his mic to sing a song
I will use my site to bring along

(break it down master… so yah later!!!)

Cold Summer Nights – Francis M

I keep on blaming my self
I should have eaten my pride
How can I convince you
It’s just a matter of time
Many times I’ve hurt you
With my foolish ways oh girl
Now I know I have to pay the price
Is there a way for you to turn around,
Turn around and come back baby
Ohh baby can’t you see…

[chorus]
It’s been cold summer nights since we drifted apart
Cold summer nights since you walked out that door
Cold summer nights… oh, here on my own
Coz I miss you baby, I need you here

[repeat verse]

[repeat chorus 2x]

Baby… baby… ohh

Kaleidoscope World – Francis M

So many faces, so many races
Different voices, different choices
Some are mad, while others laugh
Some live alone with no better half
Others grieve while others curse
And others mourn behind a big black hearse
Some are pure and some half-bred
Some are sober and some are wasted
Some are rich because of fate and
Some are poor with no food on their plate
Some stand out while others blend
Some are fat and stout while some are thin

Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most, yeah

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/exw ]
Spinnin’ round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

Some are great and some are few
Others lie while some tell the truth
Some say poems and some do sing
Others sing through their guitar strings
Some know it all while some act dumb
Let the bassline strum to the bang of the drum
Some can swim while some will sink
And some will find their minds and think
Others walk while others run
You can’t talk peace and have a gun
Some are hurt and start to cry
Don’t ask me how don’t ask me why

Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most, yeah

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin’ round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

I Tried A Free Domain

I just actually registered a co.cc domain. It is a free registered domain for a year. I have pahn.co.cc to be used for a new blog. This will just be a temporary domain because I am waiting for my back ordered one. This is good for starters who does not really have money and still want to own a professional looking domain.

My First Premium Design

Finally!!! I have made a design that I can say premium quality. It perfectly suits my mood and like. And it is all done by me!!!

I have actually done doing the theme last week. But there were some minor bugs I need to fix so it can go along with the plugins. And now, I just finished fixing it!!!

Well, I have not really put everything at the side bar yet, but at least there is no bug in the design, he he he. I will be fixing the sides and footer in a day or two.

With this theme, I have already added a favicon as well. I always wanted to put a favicon before, but I cannot seem to decide what I should put. Until I realize that the anime drawing I have for myself is starting to become my own icon, so I finally made up my mind. I may just need to get a cool picture of my self so I can totally call myself as a professional blogger.

Soon after I create my other pages for this blog, and finish the website package for my own business, I will start making free theme. I hope to get them all done on time, or else I may not figure out how to pay the bills.

Oh yeah, some of you may also notice, I am having sponsored post running. Yey!!! Payperpost already accepted my blog few days ago, and I am grabbing all the opportunity I can, even if it is just for $1. It is better than nothing. Besides, it is making me create a post and I was also able to think of different articles along. I just hope I get accepted with more other sponsored paying sites for additional revenue and articles as well.

Preparation For A Challenging Life

I know not everybody cannot withstand staying around with people who does not believe or support them in any way. I have to admit that I am staying on a place where not even one person actually understood what I have been doing. Here, I am the black sheep of the family and I learn to live with it. I don’t complain if they are not supportive of what I do, nor care if I am not treated as a part of the family. For most of the people experiencing what I get, they would certainly go and live their lives else where.

I know I can live a life for my own, because I certainly have the wit and knowledge to survive anywhere I would go. But because of this plans I have ahead of me, I manage to stay living around the people making me feel alone. In this post, I am not going to share to you how I complain the way I live. Instead, I would rather tell you how I get to continue surviving alone.

I am sure some people can feel depressed at times of the challenges, and I hope experience to share can make you wonder about yours as well:

1. Get the final decision of where you want to end up. As I said final, make sure it will not be change where ever the situation would bring you. I definitely decided that I want to live a wealthy life someday. And even hope to own several businesses of my own. As time pass by, I worked on different jobs and learned different experiences which make me want to be an entrepreneur. While I was working a stable job about a year ago, I must say thousand of Filipinos are hoping they have the lifestyle I have. A single guy who earn enough income with no obligation to anyone. And if I continue, I can even get promoted to get a better paying position, or be hired by a better paying company. But because I decided to have a company of my own, I better start somewhere even if it was exchange for a peaceful living. So I quit the normal job and start to do what I thought would be a great career. Work-at-home jobs.
2. Anticipate. Before I actually quit the stable job, I know working-at-home can be very challenging. Not because it is said in some articles, but because I know where I will be working. I know what other people would say of what I do and what I should give them to be tamed. But since I cannot provide what would tame them, I have already prepared myself of what I would have to feel.
3. Be numb. Because in my selection of place to go, I know I have to be emotionally unresponsive. Because feelings can actually control your body movements or action. But even if you are going to a place where you will not feel any negative forces, you still need to learn how to control your emotions. Facing challenges surely needs a lot of reality checking. And if you have those feeling control you, you may end up not passing the challenge at all.
4. Prepare back-up plans. Because these are challenges you are facing, you better be aware that you do not have the assurance of passing it well. Always expect for failures. So if it comes, you will be ready to accept. Having a back-up can be two things. One is for you to get ready again on facing the same challenge. And how many times you can be willing to try until you succeed on your certain goals. And two, are the plans which will be totally different from what you had tried at first. If you don’t have any back-up, you may end up of doing nothing at all.
5. Enjoy!!! Make sure that whatever you are facing, you would still have something to enjoy. Like for me, I enjoy having my long hair. If I try to work again for others, they may require me of cutting my hair. I always decline those offers given to me because I know I will be required to do this or that which I really don’t like. Plus I have an inspiration behind the things I do. So even if my family cannot inspire me, I can still have my actual inspiration make me continue helping out those who despair me.  

Well, these are just some insights I have. But the main point of going against the challenges is to make sure you can overcome them.

Pahn, The Delay Guy

I just can’t control my lazy attitude. I am not sure what remedy can there be to have discipline. Everything I have something planned, it does not work the way I hope it will. But I have nothing to complain because it always ended up the way I asked for it. I think I am abusing the blessings that are given to me.

I am sure that every one of us is planning on something, but does not actually execute it perfectly. I think this is already what you called a ways of life. Like everybody else, I have been hoping to do a lot of things not just for pleasure, but as well for the future. I am proud that I do have most of them accomplished somehow, but looking back, nothing was done perfectly.

Now don’t envy me if you’re thinking that you don’t justify yourself to do anything you want to do. Because I am sure that you have also got your plans execute, but you just don’t notice it. It is happening to everybody; I have seen and observed them pretty quite well. But the complaints kept on running because human nature does not have any satisfaction.

I can count myself blessed for having quit an observation. That maybe something that not everybody has and I just use it well for my satisfaction. Don’t regret that you are not given any of these gifts to be successful, because I am 1000% sure that each individual has something unique to show. It is just the matter of knowing them, and accepting it so you can use it well.

But, let me get back to my title. I may be blessed, but I am surely a delayed person. Just like this post it self. This should be posted two days ago, but I just can’t seem to be healthy enough to get satisfies, so I edit and proof read. I know I have a lot of other things to share, by me being delayed at everything. But it could bore you if I share lot of my life experience. It’s better shared by mouth than a blog.

So, I just wonder if you have found what unique gift was given to you, and if you are already able to use it well for your own good? Do you have something to share?

What is a Blog?

The word blog came from the combination of two words — Web and log — it is made up to shorten the two word being pronounced. A blog is a chronologically ordered series of updates from a web site. To simplify, a blog is a website with continuous content.

A blog can be a diary, photo gallery, news source or even a corporate marketing tool. Blog contents are always determined by its author. It can be found as text, photos, audio, and even video. It can be any subject you can imagine.

There is an ability for readers to leave comments that is important part of many blogs. It is an interactive way to connect with your readers. With a blog, you’re more likely to come up high in lists of search results for the topics you discuss, because your posts can always be fresh and current.

Search engines give an extra boost to Web pages that have the most recently updated or created content on the keywords being searched. And better search engine listings mean more visitors, more readers, more comments, and a more vibrant community. Individuals and companies have been quick to take advantage of the medium to reach out to Web users.

How I Started To Blog?

I first heard about blogging on TV. That time, I only thought it was a diary or journal that is a bit high-tech. When I started working for an internet company, I started to gain friends who are already blogging. They are most ladies and honestly post about what is happening to their personal or career life. I never really know anything about what people do with computers besides gaming or printing documents. I think those stuffs we see I the internet are only done by super smart programmer or hacker or what ever they call it those days.

I started working for that internet company as their part time marketing staff, and gradually became the head of the marketing department. Because of my skills that I earned from previous jobs, it was so easy for me to adopt. My duty was to provide the company with clients or members of the network we have. And since we are only few in the company, I became friends as well with the designers and developers. I got so interested on their work because I think it was so cool, and I have the thought of being called the webmaster someday. Almost everyday after my duty, I stay in the office to study on editing pictures and graphics with photoshop tool.

Our marketing was an old school style where we have visit possible clients and show them what we have. Soon, our boss was introducing to us online marketing. Since I was the best brain he had for strategy, I was assigned to do research about it to find a path on how we could apply them to our system. Because I needed the job so much, I did it even I have less interest in marketing.

Upon my research, I found out that many people are so successful marketing from blogs. I got so curious about it so I started asking my friends who were bloggers for about sometime. Aisha (who is now one of the best beauty blogger in the Philippines) was the biggest influence to me for blogging. She was just a student that time, but she is showing me already her income from her blog. It was not that big of money, but enough for people to use it as extra cash from just a hobby. And since I was doing research job, I also try to find out ways on how to earn money online. And the most appealing result was BLOGGING!!!

Once in a while, I tried to create a blog entry from free sites like MySpace or Friendster. But I was so serious that I want to earn real income online, so I decided to invest for a serious blog site with my own label. I studied how to get paypal, how to buy domains and which hosting should I choose. I save all my money to get a debit card and start transaction online.

After a week thought for my first domain name, because pahn.com was not available, I decided to grab agpahn.net for a title of Anything Goes w/ Pahn (which is now Angel Goth Pahn) to become a certain network. My first official site was born November 2007. Aisha was insisting me to use WordPress for my blogging. She told me it is the easiest blogging there was. So even if I have no idea about it, I studied how to do manual installation.

By December 2007, I got it live and start editing my own design. I am not really that good back then, but I was so happy I am able to do it. And so upon the countdown for year 2008, I waited until it hit 12 o’clock before I click the post button. I still don’t know about the schedule post, so I was like on exaggeration. I was so excited and told my friends to visit my site and leave a comment, but only two bloggers did.

Then I was told to do blog hopping for my next posts. Even if I was doing it to a girl’s niche, I was so happy from their feedback and welcoming. Soon I became friends to them, and still continue studying how to be a better blogger.

So that’s how I started BLOGGING. From my hopes to earn online, I am now fulfilling that goal.

Confused Decision

“It’s hard to find where your heart shall have its permanent place. But it’s harder to leave it to a place you cannot be close with.”

What another day getting closer to Valentines. I was thinking of creating an article to give some few basics on dating. But it seems that the mood is not attacking me. I guess it is because I don’t have any plans to go on a date, or be with anyone for that day. It is just so funny to see that few of the people I have been meeting today have been so eager to be able to find the special one fated for them. I just don’t know why I am feeling a little envious to them. Knowing most of us are still young, going to meet a lot more people in our lives.

Well, maybe it’s just me being a regular guy, but dating is not really a big deal. I have spent my years knowing people and dating different types of women, but they are just a simple get together. I never really find myself to date someone and be interested on having a stable relationship with them as a girlfriend. I maybe what you called a player, so I may not be your regular sweet romance adviser, rather your reality romance checker.

It’s been a while since I really got consulted by some people to get their mood with people they are interested with. Some stories are a success and the rest are untold with the results, but I know I base my advice using statistics. I may be that what you call a bitter person when it comes to romantic view, but I at least know how to give positive response. When I try to evaluate myself for being this, I always ask myself why I became like this.

The answer was because it is my decision. Yep! I decided to be like this, to be a statistical person in many aspects. Since it is Love Month, I will explain my statistical romantic views. Because I don’t know if it started when I was dumped with the first obsession I have, or is it because I was satisfied to find the perfect girl for me and my soul.

I don’t know why I cannot find another person who would be able to capture my whole self completely. Probably my decision was so powerful. Even there are these potentials, they are still not enough. So I continue my journey, with this incomplete set from me. And I am still looking forward to see that in the end, everything is just a challenge of faith.

Another Blog

I am now starting a new blog. Since I am passionate about making money and being an entrepreneur, I decided to focus to making this blog an entrepreneur niche blog. My aim is to provide quality content on how to make money not just online, but also with other opportunities. Such as how to land a job, or even make your own business.

I know it will be a long way before I can fulfill those contents. But I know from my heart that this is what I am passionate about. This blog will be the place where I can focus on talking more about the thing I love most, money making!!!

So sit back and relax. Surf your insecurities, or blow it off with me, Pahn!!

Out Balancing Life

Many of are focus on doing one thing at a time. If a regular student, you just need t focus on your studies. If you aim on your career, you focus on your job. But I think it is countable from a group those who can balance everything they have to live for. Well, it’s just a thought, and there is really no proven fact about it.

I’m not really into lecturing at the moment. It’s just that I realize that I am going out of balance. Literally, I have almost felt down from cycling the other day, and just wonder it may have connection to my life. Since I am one of those people who are struggling to survive for success, I must also be able to evaluate my own for enhancement. And due to the accident the other day, I started checking out on everything I have.

First, my body may be in not a good condition. Just from that cycling accident, it shows that my balancing skills have decreased. I have to also add people’s comment on me getting fat. I guess it was due to my hair getting longer, and making my face look chubbier. Also, back pain is starting to attack, and I guess my bowel movement is not regular. Basically, I forgot to maintain my body condition.

Next, I have been crunching my work-@-home career for 3 months now. I have to be honest that no income has been coming in. I am about to almost close my bank account just to stabilize my all the expenses that needs attention. All I do is to enhance and plan, enhance and plan, but I have been forgetting that proper actions are neglected. Family business also has to mix in. Not really having any big issue with it now, but I have to admit that there are going to be flaws on how I handle the budget. Same with my computer job, my actions are not executed well.

Another one is my extra curricular activities. I have been a participant of a spiritual movement to give me some peace of mind with all the problems aiming me. Well, I really have no problem with the work there, but to some social aspect there is. Acting normal and cooperative makes some people actually think I have the intension of overthrowing them. With my words I am just being true and honest, but for them thought it is an attack. I forgot that not all people can actually understand professional discrepancy.

Well, these are just three major thoughts I have. And to complete me, I have to share what I have been neglecting to be able to get on the balancing life.

First on my body condition, I must a lot myself a time a day to stretch or make real sweat. I thought I can wait until I am able to buy a new bicycle of my own for morning routines. Since money is causing this delay, I have to play again my dance work out CD. Plus, hair cut is a must. So I will make sure this week it is done.

Next is my income issue. I know I can start depending on our family business. But I do not dream to grow old with it. I must still stick with my own dreams, and assist my family since I still live here with them. I am neglecting the process, such as blog hopping, forums, and social bookmaking. And I am also not planning an article by the heart, so that is why my writing skills faded as well. Since I already have the mobile blogging, I can post anything that is really happening to me for a more personal updates. So just continue posting anywhere I am, and get active online once on the PC. Attracting people is a must.

And for my social aspect, I must remember again that everyone is not on the same page. Must levitate on the people’s need, and not just be seniority with ideas. I have actually forgot that I told myself that my only way to sound interesting to them, is to answer their question and not give them anything to think about.

So, this is probably another boring long post for other bloggers. But it surely will help me evaluate my life in the future to come. How about you? Are you noticing anything that is not balance in your life now? Do you know how to balance them again? 

My First Post From Mobile Blogging

Posted by mobile phone:
Yey! This post is being composed via my blog’s mobile site version. I have finally done installing the WP mobile plugin for my blog. You would actually only notice the change on my site if you are going to be able to browse using your mobile phone.

I decided to start this to be able to make full potential use of my mobile phone. This is also allowing me to learn more about what the future of web development should look like.

It surely is much easier to browse now my site via mobile phone. I hope many bloggers would be able to make their site mobile friendly.

I am not sure how can I expand my post for now. So I’m going to cut here for now. And make sure my blogging be more active because of this.

When Will There Be Web 3.0

As I want to learn about Learning Mobile Browsing, I can’t seem to take my mind away how the future of the web will be. I seem to not stop to think about the possible results if Web 3.0 is released. But wait, what is Web 3.0?

If you are an internet savvy person, you probably heard about Web 2.0. If you do blog, you are a part of Web 2.0. If you love social networking website, such as Facebook or MySpace, you are a part of Web 2.0. If you upload your photo’s to free photo hosting, such as Flickr or PhotoBucket, you use Web 2.0. Simply, Web 2.0 is a term for the trend in the World Wide Web. It is also a big help for business to have easier marketing tricks.

But what is really Web 3.0? As I droll over the net regarding this issue, I realize that it may take longer time before Web 3.0 is the one being practiced. Because I have started hearing about the term Web 2.0 mid of 2007, and hearing they use it for 3 years by that time. So if calculated Web 2.0 is here for about 6-8 years probably. I thought Web 3.0 is starting to rise, but no one can still say that the evolution has already begun.

I believe we will still not practice Web 3.0 for 3-5 years from now. Because what I see that is coming with it is that; almost everybody is Browsing from their mobile; wifi is free, cheap or easier to access; household will have laptops instead of desktops; application is seen on website, where you don’t need to install anything from your PC; will have more advertisement seen in-games; Search Engine such as Google will rely on searches that suites the user.

Well, there are lot more things I can see what the future of the web will bring, but it is more high tech so I conclude they will be found on WEB 4.0 or 5.0. Like web browsing will be done just by using your wrist watch, or chat room will be more tangible literally. But those hopes are still imaginary for m either. Except on what I think Web 3.0 will have, because they are already in the starting progress, and few pioneering engineers are practicing already these possibilities.

I just hope I can still reach the Web 15.0 era… He he he he he…

Must Learn Mobile Browsing

Maybe I did lost my mojo for writing. I got the term from Manz of GritFX blog, who left a comment on my previous post. Mojo for Writing. Is there such thing?

It is true that I cannot write something interesting or creative these past few weeks. I got my body weakening when I am starting to type something with the keyboard. Even when I feel awake, my eyes would suddenly starts to feel sleepy. Even during the middle of the day. Even at this moment while I type this post, my eyes is getting heavy.

I kept thinking that maybe a laptop would help me put into words those ideas coming on my head during the time I am attending our family business. Or maybe I can blog hop during those times. I have the thought of that over and over again for it is like a nice lifestyle. I wanted to take my desktop PC instead but the space won’t be able to manage this.

Then again, I just realize few days ago that I have my mobile phone to do that. Yep! If some of you remember, I purchased an expensive phone last year that would be able to accommodate web surfing with wifi. Well, that time I bought this, it is the one of the best mobile, which makes it expensive, now, it half the price on black market.

Anyway, for 5 days, I have been just watching continues series of episodes from youtube. Luckily my mobile can play those videos, but the phone heats very fast. So, I decided to try using a plugin that would make my blog compatible for mobile web browsing use. I hope to install and easily learn the use of it by the end of this week. With this, I may be able to write post even when I am on idle from our business.

It also gives me a wide point of view that we should let bloggers be able to learn making their blogs compatible for mobile web browsing. Especially those who are try earning money from their blogs. I am sure that in just couple of years from now, many will be doing mobile browsing. I want to make sure that when that time comes, I am ready for that market, just like famous sites that gives various services today.

If you heard about Web 2.0, well I think what I have in mind is a part of Web 3.0. Being able to have the knowledge of developing a website compatible for all types of browsing, from computer to the mobile phones, would really help my skills as a web developer. I am going to make sure that this is one service I can provide on the web developing company I plan to have. So cross fingers, He he he

Appreciate Real Comments

I am sure every blogger would like to have a nice a real comment on their posts or articles. And definitely I am one of them who appreciate good comments. And as a part of my enhancement in my blog, I am giving credits to my top commentators.

As you could see from my side bar, there is already a list linking for my top commentators. It is actually a gratitude for those who usually comment back to my blog post. And since it was linked, there is definitely juice given to them. And for bloggers who minds about their page rank, it is a great way to leave valid comments on blogs to receive juice on your sites.

And if you are one of these bloggers who want to get additional link juice, just comment away on blogs that have do follow on their comment links. I would also suggest you to do them on blogs who links out top commentators like what I offer to this site. It could be a long run, but it can really benefit not only link juice, but as well with your social path in the blogosphere.

I am actually using Top Commentators plugin to place this on my sidebar. It just automates to calculate all the comments in my blog. I decide to place o the top commentators those who have been commenting within 150 days. So it surely will differ automatically depending on the comments growing.
I still plan to moderate all the blog post and comments with in the past year to actually enhance my blog. I know all I need is to just update daily to be a successful blogger, and me really trying hard to practice this. As well as to comment on other bloggers blog, and I will definitely start leaving comments on blogs who have the same gratitude they give to commentators. As long as I can give out my links out there, it is a good thing for me.

And as I proof read this post, I feel like I am loosing my touch write a good article. Perhaps I will be editing this later or tomorrow to enhance the way I write this. I have been not in the good aura to write lately, that is why I have been failing not only my blog, but myself as a blogger as well.

Well, I am off to a party now, so, I’ll catch you later!!!

Blame The ISP!!!

Yes!! I want to blame our ISP provider. PLDT MyDSL

I haven’t really been active online like I was before, and I think I know now who to blame. It is the internet connection that is not being stable. I have been hoping to get back on the track and be active online since this year arrived. But most of the time the internet connection just fluctuate.

I know last month I was focusing on a project and had been watching to much online, that is why I cannot share my knowledge online. But this month, I always get some holdings to do some extra contribution on the net, such as blog hopping and forums. All just because of the internet connection!!!

So, I must still do my duties and try to apologize for not visiting back those who comment on my blog. It just most of the time happens that the internet browser had a time out. I will try to get back to each of you when I get he chance. As I said several post before this, I am already taking over our family business, and I only have couple of hours a day to be online.

As I am getting weak to be inactive online, I never realize that some bloggers also have the same laziness as I did. We may have different reasons, but I guess it’s the niche making me be this way. I’ll be trying to make this blog get involve on more active niche. It could be helpful, but I hope they can help as well.

I am sure I am not the only one experiencing this here in the Philippines. And most of the internet connection sucks what ever is the ISP (Internet Service Provider). So how do you dwell when this occurs to you?

Entering New Phase… Again

I have entered a new phase of life again. And this time, it is the serious one where reality has a big part. I want to hold my horses, but I need to ride this one up to the finish line.

For almost 8 years, probably, I have been looking life like a TV series. Where there are new episode daily, weekly or monthly. And every change of what I do in life is a new season. With most the past seasons, most of them started to aim a goal of my plans before I enter them. But this new season I am in this time is fairly serious.

Like I said on my last post, I already started taking over our family business. This is not a drill anymore for me to practice my skills, it is the real thing. The numbers to crunch will determine how successful the business shall go.

And as I calculate everything, from sales to debts, I was so surprises that my brains was able to provide me a good solution to resolve the problems turned over to my management. I am hopeful that my solution will be enough to at ease my parents on worrying about them.

So I guess I am proud to say that I never regret the things I did before. For these experiences makes me confident to be able to continue on my plans and goals that I am aiming to pursue. At the same time, I get to help my family.

So cross my fingers, and hoping to still be able to continue on blogging my way to success!!!

Taking Over The Presidency

Well, everybody surely knows the historical taking over of President Barrack Obama over the leadership of USA. I don’t really know how this new administration would be affecting and leading the most powerful country, but I sure hope it is as I watch it from the TV. Not the news, but the movies and TV series where there are president who is black or Afro-Americans.

I am a true admirer of his campaign “Yes We Can”. Believing that any person can do what they want to do and achieve. Just if they do it and continue to do it until they are able to achieve it. Yes We Can!!!

And as Obama takes over the Presidential responsibility to lead the most powerful country, I am also bringing myself to take over. Not as to be the president of a country, but to take control over our family business. Yep, not by heart of choice, but I have too.

We have a food chain business doing service two ways. One is operated by my father and the other one by my mother. Yesterday as I go to sleep in the morning, my mom woke me up with her nose bleeding. We have to rush her to the hospital since it was non-stop. She got a hypertension. She was advised to be admitted in, but she refuses. Even though I have the fear to be paying all these bills, I am still ready to bring her in. In the end, she just takes a rest at home. While my father takes care of her, I stood by our stall.

To make the long story short, I, in the end of the day decided to take over on everything. I have to do the management of the business up to family budgeting. No excuses even from the loans and debts my parents have. As Obama the US president, I think I am our family business’ president. He he he

I also know I did wish to run my own business, but did not wish taking over what my parents have. I was hoping to make an extension of it someday if I have the money. I just can’t smile that God was able to make an excuse for him to be able to give me what I asked few years ago. A profiting business by start of 2009, I remembered this was one of my wish from him.

Why I am not smiling? Because I understand this is a form of tease to me. Yep, I am that is how close I am to him that he surely do tease me once in a while. It just crank me off every time he does this to surprise me, Not that because these things are happening, but because I know why and understood clearly why they happen. So good luck to me, and God Bless America!!

Go Obama!! We can do it!! YES WE CAN!!!

Face Your Greatest Fear

There is a big chance that I should have to face my biggest fear of all soon. And of course I will not share what that is.

But in any case I just think this fear is what’s holding me back. Or is it my lack of discipline? Or could be the lazy human in me is taking over, or is it the Mr. know it all’s action once again? Perhaps the weird geek is answering to this dilemma? Am I confuse or what?

Okay, everybody sure has this situation taking over once in a while. I believe it has been happening to me thrice a year. Some are lucky they have to face it once a decade. But how do we really get over it?

Well, the simplest way I know is to just let it pass. And if you are a person who thinks a lot when this case happens, try to think them while doing something that can tire you. Before I thought I can do it just by doing something that makes me busy, I guess my experience thought me once again.

In this type of situation when you have something worrying you, don’t just do something to make you busy, does something that will make your body automatically react on, and try to realize about your problem. Why? Well, it will be a long story to share, and I know only few would take interest.

But I will share those ideas tips and maybe advices that many people think is useful while I am sharing them when we talk about their problems. And maybe if I learn how to give explanation that is not too complicated to read.

I just wanted to update tonight for I have the fear of facing my fear sooner the time I am composing this post. I apologize for those who I am not able to leave comments on blogs. I may slip unwanted words for my persona this season is on wacko mode. I really just want to settle many things at the moment, and try to re access where this blog is going. Because I have been planning to create different blogs ever since which I am not able to.

I still thank those who drop by my blog and read my post and would even bother to comment on them. I am on trial an error on many things, which I hope to succeed with sooner or later.

Before I end this, I just want to ask how you would be facing your greatest fear.

Be Aware Pahn

OMG!! I have been surfing out lately to gain additional knowledge on my plans. Knowing that I am the only one having my ideas, it really shocked me to know that there is someone out there already doing what I have in mind.

As you know, I have already started a social networking website for a certain game community, which I mention the official released last post. Being confident that I shall achieve my first goals sooner or later, I was surprised that there could be a threat out there for me.

I don’t know who this guy is, but he surely have the same e-commerce reseller that I also have, and he also have a social network community which is address to a niche I idealize to be a big hit here in the Philippines. I just hope he, does not have the strategy I have developed this past year of blogging. Yep, blogging really helps me a lot to be confident on taking action of what I had in mind.

So I better be aware and be more constructive with my plans. I just wanted to blog about this so in later time when I review my old blog post; I can evaluate what I have already achieved and how I have done it. Because that is what I do when I go on a new phase. 

I really don’t know if I should be proud of finding this out. I am sure that person does not know someone is starting to do what he is already established from mid of last year. I guess I have a more advantage. He he he

Starting Free!!! Freesshhh…

I will never be too serious anymore.

I think I should have that as the New Year’s resolution. I’m such a crap!!!
I have wanted to write something great for the beginning of the year, but I just have nothing running on my thoughts. I believe I really am starting fresh for this year.

And it has been a month since I did a major bloghop comment dropping. I don’t know why I was so lazy, but that was my favorite thing to do in blogging. I just realize also that I never got to do so much for two months of being bum working at home. So far, I have not really made any serious money.

Today, I have just finished creating this new design for my blog. I actually did not sleep for 24hrs just to finish this new theme. I really give focus on this before anything else again. Since I am running short in time, I should always start with the easiest ones. And that is to take care of my blog first.

I have also started using Plurk if you notice from my sidebar. I hope I get to make more friends with it. So add me up if you are a plurk addict.

I also remember I have some pending topics I should share, but my mood just stops me from starting it up. My fire is running out of heat, so I need to get back from the basics.

So next thing, I will go blog hopping as I download some files. I will expand it more. Why I want to do that? Well, it really helps with the increase of page rank. Yup! Leaving comments to other blogs allows you to leave your link as well. This is better even if not all of them do return back the comments.

If you are here checking because I drop comment in your blog, thank you. If you missed me, I love you!!! But let me take this chance to share what I am planning new for this year. So if you will be interested, please subscribe to my blog.

I will not just give random tips and advice, but some stuff that would benefit many from this blog of mine. Like my first shoot would be free ad space for your blogs. Free to cheap creation of icon and banners. Entrecard EC points giveaway contest. If I make it so well, it will be free WP themes. And if get successful, could even give free registered domains.

Yes!! I plan to give a lot of free things. I will start from something that really does not cost anything, and if things go smooth for me this year something special that would need to be paid. I also pray to be able to give free vacation package, or maybe making it as a contest, God only knows what exactly will happen.

But I have all the guts to work on it. So stand by 2009, because if my blog don’t go so well, I am going to start working for companies again as an employer.

So guys, help me be able to give a lot of free stuffs. Subscribe to my feeds now so you will be able to grab some of these freebies.

After A Year Of Serious Blogging

It is now officially a year after I started to get serious on blogging. Happy New Year everyone!!!

Exactly one year since I officially let people know that I would dare to blog. And for all this time, I am still surviving the blogosphere. Yey!!! I tried to recall way back then, all the things that happen to me. Checking every post revisited those who comment on me. And I still can’t realize why things happened so fast, while remembering they were so slow while I was at that moment.

Anyway, let me do a shortest summary as I could. January 2008, my very first time of blog hopping. I known a lot of people in the girly niche of blogosphere, and I think only 7 or less bloggers I remember I have met for the back then still survives blogging. I will not mention them here to avoid being unfair, I may forget to mention somebody, he he he.

February 2008 was the first time I ever received sponsored link to a post. They were 5 posts, but I only got 750 pesos. I know it was very low and cheap, but it was the start. This was also the month when I have acknowledged how to increase traffic. This blog was even called the worst blog ever by some freak maniacs from a certain forum.

March 2008 is when I realize that my writing skills were improving because I blog. Getting critics, tagging, or simply call it, being active online. I learned the techniques of blogging are a lot of work. April 2008 is when I realize of focusing to my blog earning. This was also the time I have been serving my trial then errors. Since I was still on my stable job, I am starting to see how I can be more successful.

May 2008 was the time I have a hiatus, I only blog one time this month. This was a time for me to reevaluate what my life as been. Report to my King, and shows me the easier path to be able to arrive on my target destination. While June 2008 was the time I have to draw my game plan and layout everything on a draft.

I then started investing on July 2008. Like going on a road trip, I get the vehicle, foods, and clothes and even start looking for companion. I was cleaning up all the mess before I leave for the real new journey. I called August 2008 the transferred month since it was the time of lots of transferring happened not just in my blogging, but other things that were happening in my life.

September 2008 I was so focus on detailing how I can have an earning from home, and been learning more on the possibilities. Until I decided to officially resign from my stable job at October 2008, there was an incident that really did not hold me back. So I started to chill at home by November 2008 and start working on new websites. I also was able to increase my traffic a lot and making it stable.

And this December 2008, I was so eager to start up with a Social Networking website. But I have been so lazy this holiday just watching movies online.
So, New Year has come and I can’t wait what will happen. I just hope I would still be able to survive and enhance what I have invested from the year 2008.

Happy New Year!!!

My Dork Avatar

I just try to create a new avatar last night. But it does not seem to look good enough. It looks more like me, look like a dork,, hehehe

I have nothing to blog much about yet. But Let me just share this filthy creation

A Christmas Gift via Virtual Friends

Merry Christmas!!!

For readers, I really want to give you e-gifts. Unfortunately, I got so occupied with this project and some parties. But, I will still try if I could give you guys for New Year ^^

And before I forget, Thanks to You Jhayelle!!! I got your card last week, and forgot to mention it. I’m sure you know how busy I was. But seriously, I thought it will just be a common card to receive, but when I saw it, it gave me a real smile I was deep asleep while my mom said I have a letter. I told her to just put it on my table because I was really wasted. When she said she will open it, I have to stand up and take it from her; I thought it had money that she may take away. Then I realize it was what Jhayelle send me.

I have a true smile with it because I have never receive or actually seen a beautiful hand writing for such a long time. I remember on my primary level years some of my girl classmates have the similar writing, so cute and beautiful. Since HS, all hand writing I see is not really that good. When I started working, almost every letter and notice I see were computer printed.

I was planning to open it on Christmas, and maybe put it as a decoration first. But my mom just couldn’t help herself and open it. She was surprise something from Japan came to me.

Well Jhay, your simple card will surely get into my treasure box, a box where items really means to me. I think it’s the 5th or 6th item there. But it surely is something special. I just love the hand writing!!! I surely felt the sincerity while you were preparing those cards.

Since it was open, I just took a picture of it ^^

You Were Not w/ Me – x

When that gate shut
I became alone
It was to silent
I couldn’t ever hear a moan

So I sat and think for a while
Where will I go, where’s the road
How can I fly?

I thought you could be with me
I thought it can possibly be
But pathetic senses construct me
So I have to face this faith ahead to see

Getting More Loco And Wacko

I have to prepare some useful tips
Can I even do that?

It seems that many comments from my last post will be waiting for tips on loosing ones pride. I am not sure if I can provide useful and good ones. Because as I discuss about Pride Chicken, I was thinking that people with pride would be easier to defeat because pride can make them weak. That is the reason why I came up with the Chicken on the title.

If you are one of those waiting for the tips, I hope you could wait longer. I just am updating now because I almost forgot about my blog. If you started reading from my last month’s posts, you know I have been busy on creating a social networking website. The truth is I am forgetting that Christmas is coming. I do wake my brothers to Simbang Gabi, but I still continue working on my project. I do not intend to complete the 9 days, but would go partly. I am going to explain them on other post, probably after Christmas.

I have been loading myself with tasks and neglecting people around me to finish this. I never realize just installing the scripts to the servers would be a big hassle, so I really am focusing on it. I am going crazy with the trial and errors. Uploading and deleting from the servers have been wasting so much of my time. And right now as I create this post, I am uploading a new test. Oh how I wish I have an expert on php beside me.

Anyway, this post is for the sake of update. And I am also looking for people who would be interested to become moderators and administrators. Maybe suggestions on improvement with the design of the site can be helpful. These people who are willing to help me may have the chance to earn or get paid if the website is a total success. If not, there will be an assurance of help in resume, or certificate as interns if there ever are students. You could also be invited if interested to venture on future projects.

Well, those are not yet properly documented and still in my head. I first need to finish the website and successfully lunch it before I have the chance to properly document legally papers. I just believe it will work out, but slowly. I do not have all he money to invest, and since I have many free time now, I have to sacrifice them. Besides, it is truly saving me a lot of money. Because I don’t need to buy stuffs or street foods as I usually do. I can’t believe I have only spent less than a hundred pesos or $2USD for 3-2 weeks now.

I just hate the time when I spend just watching a movie. Those are the lazy moments. I am so unproductive with it. I just hope to finish all of these on time ^^

So if you are interested in being an administrator, just tell it on the comment using your active email so I can email you the details.

Pride Chicken

I cannot freaking believe it; I have been going so far ahead. Is this really a blessing, or is it a curse? Does the world really have to go round this way? Hate me, curse me, crucify or deny. I just really cannot believe this could be a true reason for living.

Guys, I just can’t help now but to think about the people evolving in this planet. Well, here’s the thing. I know that I am a merciless mean person. I know I don’t have a heart in me to be kind. But I learned how to manage everything on its right place.

First things first, the previous post I was tackling so depress and losing hope. Well, I got to start being honest here in my blog I guess. Besides, I need to be an adult about this kind of stuffs. I am really missing a girl that I truly love. Yup, Pahn maybe a womanizer, but his heart belongs to only one woman, while the body is given to anyone.

So, to cut it short, I am being lazy for not seeing the inspiration of my life. I’m just babbling about other problems such as home issue, trust or failure, but I can really easily manage them. The girl is also the reason why I blog here. The reason I want to be successful. If you have been able to catch my posts way back before, you’ll know I am really crazy about this issue. Missing that person affect the rest of what I do.

But, my opening pitch is different from love life, because just last night, I have hurt another person’s pride. I know for the past years I have been a mean person, a reason why I don’t really get a lot of friends to hangout. I know because I don’t have the heart to be nice to them for I already gave it away. But despite of being a harsh person, I know how to place myself. That is the reason why I have been starting to get networks and more additional friends.

I have learned that being the right attitude should be at the right place. For the past years, I have been an employee of several companies, and these experiences inspire me to really aim high and even starting my own business (which I hope would work well soon). Being franks and straight person helped me perform well on the working industry. On the other part, to be friendly must only provide positive opinions. If you fail to do so, people would probably hate you even if everybody knows what you said is true. You always need to watch your words.

I have gained a lot of connection for learning these tricks. I’m not being plastic, but sarcastic. But behind the sarcasm, I just do the right things. If you see movies, tycoons are mostly the bad people. Perhaps that is the reason why I want to be the bad guy, because they are always the rich people. Still deep inside tycoons have the kindest hearts.

It has been my style to have a different persona when talking business, and would change when just having a casual chat, that is also different from having a friendly talk. I try to balance everything as I could, and would immediately apologize if I know I have an inappropriate approach.

Anyway, it’s just funny to realize that I usually only hurt people on the same life status that I have, a lifestyle where we cannot afford to buy expensive stuffs. And in my case, I am not even able to give myself new shoes or shirts. In short, the people who don’t have extra money and have a hard time maintaining their upkeep. But as I can control myself, I make it to a point that discussions about business should be different for any other relationship with the person.

I know I do give an apology if the talk doesn’t go well. Just to remove the hard feelings and don’t feel any awkwardness against one another. But I just can’t understand why these people don’t want to be sports or accept any apology. This is probably the reason why these kinds of people do not enhance on their life status, and mostly will end up worst. They are the ones who does not open up their minds on the things explained to them, and would just not want to learn from others.

I just notice that people living a better life than me, the richer ones, can usually understand the truth that is said to them. People living a better life are the people who actually know how to accept things as they are. And to live much better, they just keep improving the things that are hard to accept.

As I write this topic, it came up to my sense that is probably the main reason why people here on earth are having fall down.

“Pride“

Come to think about it, it is really a major factor. Should I discuss how I want to elaborate it, or maybe conquer or how throw it? That’s right; another pillar article could be good. He he he I’ll see if I can write it on the next post.

So as a conclusion, I just realize that I could still be lucky because I know I want to learn from others, accept what is already there, and knowing that I want to try hard to remove my pride as much as I could. But don’t expect me not to be a frank person.

Do you know what are you having pride about? Do you want to remove them to your system? We’ll see on my next post if I have some tips.

Farewell, I'm On A Journey ix

Anniversaya ’06

There were thorns that you summon
So I don’t get near you
I just want to head your words
But that will just be a blue

So I crack up and cried
I convince myself and realize
I laugh the thought
Because only to you I strive

I enter the new domain
Where you may never appear
I hoped you would follow
Or would just suddenly appear

One day I will get there
One day I shall return
Because when that day happen
I will make sure we both stay

Common And Easy Ways Of Instantly Relieving Stress

I am so freaked out at the moment!!!

Geez, remember I am developing a social networking website. This week, I plan to focus on manipulating the design of the site. With html, php and CSS, it is already easy for me. But I am just sick with my brains today. Instead of just focusing in the designs, I wasn’t able to control myself on adding new features. Well, this feature has something to do with .htaccess files. As in like, they are really freaking me crazy!!!

Well, the feature will surely give a staying power for the users, but I am just so having a headache on touching the server’s files. I have totally no clue on this, and there are no tutorials for dummies available online to explain the system easily.

It is like I am going into the deepest jungle of programming. Heck! I know I’m a geek, but do I have to go this far?

You may think all this challenges I am facing is a good thing. Well, I agree with you on that. But, you know when you are in the situation where you at least need to show you are breaking out on what you do. Of else, stress comes over.

Yup, I was about to break out. With all the people around me thinking I am doing nothing good in front of the PC, plus the worry of where I should get the money to pay on next years bill. It was a start of getting stress. So, I just recalled one of my old posts about Stress Reliever, where my construction of article was really a no good, plus unlikely called for smiles and spoilers.

So, I wanted to share something similar on it again.

Common And Easy Ways of Instantly Relieving Stress:

• Breathing – easiest way ever! Who cannot take a deep breathe right? Everybody can do this, anywhere, anytime (well, maybe except it the air is not good enough). If you know and hear about Yoga, breathing is the main method used which helps your body. Because if you actually do a proper posture, or Yoga for short, it will help you increased energy, improved blood circulation, reduced swelling, and improved complexion. Yep! Simple breathe if done properly, can be a big help to your body.
• Walking – is giving a lot of benefits. You may think this is a good form of exercise, but some of you may wonder how it helps stress. Well, one thing exercises do help lessen stress, but I will not example it as common way, because not all are eager to do exercise. But walking is so common. Why helps distress? Because when you go take for a walk, you will be able to think about what is causing you stress, like money problems for example. When you go for a walk, your blood circulates to your brain, and then it will help you think even better.
• Talking – could be annoying, but sure is a winner. I am sure you can prove it. For me, it just helps you release what is inside your feelings that causes you stress. Like, if you are in love with someone but nobody knows it but only you, you may say you are stressed out because you are in love. Generally, one major cause of stress is on what you are thinking and feeling that doesn’t make you comfortable. And if you just spit it out to someone, and letting it all out, you will surely be relaxed.
• Sleeping – is my favorite. They say you just need to relax if you are stressed out. But how will you do that if you feel all the anxiety along. If you know you are stressed out, and can’t control it, just sleep. Take a sleeping pill if you must. Because this will calm your senses, and when you wake up, you can easily control yourself when you are still stressed out.
• Laughing – for all you can. I am not sure how to give a good metaphor or explanation to this. I haven’t even heard any scientific explanation (if there is) how it helps. But, I have been laughing most of the time with friends, and it just helps me forget all the worries. And if you have no friends to laugh with, just keep on smiling.

These entire examples I gave are really common things. And surely everyone does it (unless they are disabling to do so). It can be done anytime, and anywhere. But, I would have to share that prevention is better than cure. So give time for your self (by thinking or taking a break or vacation) before you even get stressed out.

How To Be Confident?

I always see people in their eyes being interested to ask other people something, mostly favors, but end up being disappointed because it never happens. This usually comes to people wanted to ask someone that they are not really bonded too. Most of their reasons are because they are shy. But is it really because they are shy?

I doubt that being shy is the reason. They just use that term because it is the mostly used reason of all. I highly believe it is because they are just embarrassed of something. They were embarrassed that they may look stupid, sound pathetic, or maybe because they do not look so good.

I have been noticing this today as I think of what to share. Like, my mom asking me to ask the person who pass by if they are the one was waiting for. This happens to me most of my life, even when I was still a toddler. Yep, I just remember my classmate pushed me to always do the task of talking to other people, especially when we need to explain something wrong that happen to the elders.

Probably I was gifted to be confident all my life. But I thought twice, I am not. Before, I maybe confident talking to other people, but I totally screw up with girls. Yep, I was no good when it comes to girls. So, I decided to share what I did to be confident on the things I was not confident enough. This tips I will share may not just be used for meeting girls, but to know how to approach other people. So here I go:

1. Know Why You Are Not Confident – First things first, find the source of your lack of confidence. Many have been neglecting the fact that there are reasons for everything in this world. Most people would just reason out that they are not born with it, which is merely a stupid reason. Many said it was with me because of genes, because my dad had a strong PR. But what about my mother side, was it from them why I was not confident enough with girls? Wrong! The reason why I was not confident enough with girls is because I was not exposed to girls that much. It was true that my cousins were all girls, but I was not sweet with them at all. We just fight, and never get to see the girl side of them. Even growing up in school, I just hang around with my buddies. And since I was not that cute enough during puberty due to being sweaty and maybe smelly, girls would just stay away from me. This is another reason why I was not confident with them.

   So, I got my source. First I was not exposing to them, and then I was not cute enough for them because I was not neat enough. Have you already realize why you are not confident on something?

2. Find A Way To Be Confident, Change!!! – Now that you know your source, fix it! There is only one thing permanent in this world, and that is changes. Never ever think that it is hard to change, because it only takes time, but it is really as easy as it sounds. It is just in our nature that we are really impatient. It will just be easy because I am sure that there are tips and advices out there in almost every situation. They have Expert Studies, internet, books, and most reliable source is elderly experiences. Take sides and opinions, then evaluate what suite you. You cannot just do what he said is right, because you are uniquely you. Their experiences maybe quite different, because their time is different from ours. Are they using cell phones? No! So use their advice as metaphor, and stand on your own.

   And as for me, I read magazines that girls love to read, I try to know how they react on things, what they would want, and how should it be done. So I clean up my self, avoid getting sweaty and smelly, started to dress up properly. And with these fixed up, I got confident that lets me be able to approach them. By just fixing what is in lack of me.

3. Believe And Be Happy That It Can Be Done, Get The Inspiration – This could be a little hard part, but not that really hard. The situation is mind over matter. So set your mind to be free, think positive. But, if there was a trauma, it could lose your wit and belief. So, what could be a good solution? Get some inspiration. Watch a movie flick, read books, talk to some supportive friends, prep up. Have the time of your life!!! I may not have a hard part doing this on my situation because I just get my inspiration on watching movies, or T.V. series. All thou, that is not just what I did. Some new friends I met actually helped me to over come this phase. They bring me to parties, showed me how it’s done, and shared thoughts and inspiration from others (Not just with guys, but with other friendly girls as well)
4. Just Do It! – Do I even need to explain this more? Just do it. Nothing is going to happen if you won’t try at all. There is no sense of doing the preparation if it cannot be done. It is just like cooking a special dinner, but no ones going to eat it. Since you have believed it can be done, just keep those feelings and there will be no problem. So I am neat and smart enough, I was able to start the conversation. Actually, there are techniques I acquired when I was reading girls magazines, which I don’t know if I’ll share some times, or just keep it a guys secret (How To Make A Girl Interested In Talking With You). I started talking with them before by the phone, then came up texting, then chatting on the internet, and right now I am into blogging. I keep exposing my self with girls. And of course, these stuffs allowed me to talk to anyone I want now.

   Unlike before, when I am in a conversation, it just cut off. But now, I know how to make a mood swing, although it took some real practice. He he he

5. Learn More – Don’t just stop being confident into one thing. Your life is not limited to. People’s nature is not bound to be satisfied with what they get, so don’t be left over. You don’t want to just be just confident one time, but keep it forever. Getting to know the buzz, or knowing other peoples interest can help you keep up with them, especially on conversation. You can actually by pass my other tips. Because if you know what to do or say, you are definitely going to be confident always!!!

Having A Thought – Social Network Blog

Hi! I am just happy that I am improving already the website I am keeping my self busy on. I am not really an official programmer or developer, but I had loved playing with codes.

That website I am working on now will be targeting a 3D virtual community, to create web page for their own characters. I have actually encoded how to upload an avatar/picture, add friends, send message, and give certain information from a profile page. I can also add photo gallery, but I worried about the space or bandwidth from my host. Maybe I’ll do that some other time if the site will be a success.

I was really thrilled being able to create them. This week, I will be focusing on how to manipulate the CSS codes for the design and outlook of each profile. I really hope I can duplicate Friendster or MySpace’s style for creating a webpage. Where members would be able to manipulate their profile’s CSS of unique look. I just hope I can do that soon enough.

But last night, while talking to a friend about this, I just had a thought. I know there are already a MyBlogLog, BLogCatalog, Technorati, or many else that is a social networking dedicated for blogs. But I wonder if there is already something that is like Friendster or MySpace, where member are only suppose to be bloggers.

Yup, you’re imagining it right. I am not so sure if there is something out there. Where bloggers can manipulate their profile page the way they wanted. Then add friends, and can directly show their post from their blogs directly via feeds. I just wonder what if I create that as well on later times. There is a possibility it can be a hit if it looks good.

As I linger in these thoughts, I was wondering for a good name for that site just incase I create it. I just can’t think of any. So, I decided, maybe I’ll ask my readers!

What could be a good name for a Social Networking Website exclusively for Bloggers?

Gmail Themes Available on Release

Wow, just few moments ago (probably an hour), I was still browsing my Gmail on default settings. Until my next click suddenly prompted that Themes are already available.

So I decided to check it out and found the Themes so amusing. I researched a little bit, and learned that these themes would actually interact according to your location. If it is sunny day, rainy, morning or night, depending on the Theme you would select.

I actually love the different Themes, and decided to choose “Planet” theme. And thought many girls would love the “Candy” or “Cherry Blossom” theme.

I was using a Safari Web Browser when this happen. So I decided to check my other accounts using Firefox, but they were not yet available on my other accounts. Probably the GMail team is changing one by one from there servers.

If you actually missed the announcement from your account and wanted to check if they are available to you, you may check my other post on How To Change GMail Theme.

The available Themes as I checked them are:

• Default
• Classic
• New BLue
• Cold Shower
• Steel
• Minimalist
• Green Sky
• Bubblegum
• Cherry Blossom
• Night Shade
• Marina
• Dusk
• Sunset
• Silver Lining
• Contrast Black
• Shiny
• Desk
• Tree
• Beach
• Mountains
• Pebbles
• Summer Ocean
• Phantasea
• Graffiti
• Planets
• Zoozimps
• Candy
• Bus Stop
• Ninja
• Tea House
• Terminal

How To Change GMail Theme

Gmail just released a new cool feature of changing your Theme. Changing it is so easy.

1. Login to your Gmail account.
2. Click on the “Settings” link found at the upper-right of your browser.
3. Click on the “Themes” link from the tab under Settings.
4. Select a Theme you want by clicking a thumbnail.
5. You will be asked to place your Location. Include a valid known location because some themes would change according to the location that you will provide. There could be sunshine, sunset, or the weather too.
6. Good luck with your new Gmail Theme. You can change it anytime you want. ^^

Re: Fixing The Holes – again

Holy Crap!! I have to fix the roof again!! There were new holes created from the last time I fixed it. Yeah, I fixed it last week as I mention from this post. 

I was hoping I did fixed our roof very fine from the hole. These holes drips rain drops every time it rained. The problem with our roof is that it is double ceiling. So I can really not determine which part really has the smallest holes using the power of light. We did have to wait for it to rain again so we know if there was a problem.

And tonight it rained. I was so freaking out that these new drips were transferred to a different part of the roof. Why I freaked out is because they were just over my head as I used my computer. I have to hastily move my stuff to avoid it getting wet. Good thing it happen while I was still awake, and saved my stuffs.

I’ll get back to that roof first thing after I woke up with the sun high. Oh, how I wish to find those tiny freaking holes

Fixing The Holes For Free

Today, I was fixing the holes on our roof! Our previous contractor did not really make a good job, and since I stay here at home now, I decided to do it myself. And it is done for free. Of course, this is where I live. So I need to be able to manage a place I should call home.

There will be a lot of fixings I need to do. Not just here in our house, but as well in my life, blog and career, or maybe as well as love?

As I said from my previous post, I decided to create a social networking website. As I have observed, that sort of website is the most fast growing. I am trying free open source CMS tools out there to develop it. And I was surprised that there are such free stuffs out there.

As I heard once, software is supposed to be a free knowledge. And having a thought of it, it is true. I may not be able to explain deeply here, but maybe on one of my plan blogs I will. It is just like science where dedicated people such as inventors and researcher (developers for software) have to discover about it, and then it will just be used by all human kind for free. I can visualize now how future would be like because of this kind of concept.

So while I was on the roof under the direct sky and hearing the city noise, I was thinking deep again what can I do to make a better system for my self and everything that I do? Since I am studying more on developing website, I decided that I will also be helping giving away those free themes or maybe even software. I hope to finish a system for it by this month. So soon enough you will see a link on my menu or navigation for a new page about this. I will also start accepting link exchange next week, so drop by again to apply.

Oh my. A lot of work still needs to happen. I just hope I will get to enhance my blog as well as I do these.

My Domain's Birthday

I completely forgot, my domain is 1 year old!!!

Being so busy on finding ways for me to earn a good income to live, I have neglected my beloved first domain. I am now busy trying to open several websites and new blogs to have some cool income. But forgetting my inspirational website really makes me a complete jerk once again!!

I don’t know why the hell I not coupe up with what I am suppose to do. I know I am optimistic, but I need to be honest to my self that I am lacking of something. And this something is what’s making me not do the job right. Like what I said from my last babbling, I just need a good rest, start another routine. But why everyday I try to do that, something always came wrong.

That’s it for now. I think I must blog hop again.

Opening That Gate viii

with the King ’06

And so here I am
Tucked behind that closed gate.
Was it the Kings order?
No need for me to dictate?

I wanna get out and step out
And check that shining piece
But now I only have doubt
To b able to reach that one piece

We are called for the gathering
Unexpectedly shows up the King
As I check you up sight seeing
Until you open up the gate that I mean

Thank you your highness
It’s an awkward feeling
I hope she can join me
But there are other soldiers blocking

Knight in the Reckless Armor

Yep! I am certainly a Knight in the Reckless Armor

I am a man who is utterly unconcerned about the consequences of some action. I am proceeding from such carelessness.

Way back before, I call myself that title. It was by the time I met the princess of my life. I first thought those words means to be a kings soldier who is wearing dirty armory, carrying a dull sword, and with an old sick horse. I am not a prince charming who can enchant a princess. I am someone who just does what ever it takes to do a mission. Today, I remember that title, but this time, I even bothered goggling the meaning. And it certainly goes with who I am now, a reckless person.

I cross the streets with rampage of vehicles on the go. I speak my words as if no one gets hurt. I do the job without thinking of what my co-workers thought. I will quit a job for an uncalled reason. I will start something with no conclusion. I will expect with no resolution.

Am I not a crap???
Why am I telling these things anyway?
Well, I am in the state of going down to start again.

Yep! I am falling down flat on the floor baby. First I got rid of my job. Now, the money I will get shall pay the remaining debts I have. Then, the group I hang out with does not even care to notice inviting me on their gatherings. The princess is even gone missing. But the most downing part, we just lost our internet connection!!!

Oh why is my life in circle. It is this season of my life again where I am at the very lost of my life. I thought that entering this new chapter of my life will be hard. I was preparing for it. But still, faith can really never miss on making me feel starting from the very beginning again.

I do not have anymore debts, but I have also no money in savings. I quit my job to find a new venture, but no income is promising. I try to be attaching my self to people, but they never seem to see me. I help in the house hold chores; still I am a burden kid. Now real craziness is really starting to show in me. I lost my wings from a battle. I cannot fly anymore.

All I need is a good long sleep. Wake up in a fresh morning. Start a good routine. And start fixing this reckless armor, and wear a nice clean suit. Oh my gosh, I just need to take a bath!!!

Trick or Trips

I almost forgot to check on my blog.

Happy Halloween everybody!!!

Preparing for another complete make over in my life is really keeping me busy. If you were checking on my blog, you know that I just resigned a stable job from a company that I was working for. If people would get curious what I planed to do next, well that is to start my very own company.

I have been studying the process of legality and other optional ways for me to work from home. Of course, I would need to check on continuous income just in case my company would not generate a good amount of income for the upkeep. Being a self-oriented entrepreneur is really a hard work. I just really hope things will work out just the way it should be.

I need to work on first a good generation income from blogs. I plan to start other blogs that would help me increase my possible income generated by blogs. I also will be starting to manage websites for online communities. I have to think big and strategize good to make this work out. And basically, I will also not forget to enhance my domain selling and web hosting service. I must be able to start getting client before this year ends. That is my main target.

I must not also forget to mention, I am talking to people who are business oriented and would like to venture with me. I am planning to get them as staffs first, but I will basically treat them as business partners. Starting up business is surely a hard work. I am actually creeping out because I do not have any more funds. Oh I wish I get to work at ease.

Oh, bad luck just came in by the way. We lost our internet at home, actually, the telephone lines are down!!! It was the fault of a reckless driver who drags the telephone cables just outside our house. Several houses lost their telephone. It just happened yesterday, and the telephone company is really not prioritizing it even the support says they do.
I am just updating here to my friends internet cafe. Even my auntie’s internet was down. So I have no choice. I guess I can just first set up our house so I can let my potential staffs work with me. Oh, yeah, I will also need additional PC for that.

I guess I will have to end here for now. I will blog hop as soon as I get our internet connection back.

The Only Thought – vii

Onstage ’06

It is over, and I don’t need to sober
I must understand that I did nothing to plunder
Now it’s clear, I can deliver my wonder

I act as I feel, I bow and even kneel
I place my self to end it
Because I no longer need a dream

I go here, I go there
Not for you but the maker
So I place myself to consolidate
And i receive many chocolate

The thought is pure
And this is how I know how to cure
So I got to be true
And thank God I hear you

I’m starving, Im craving
I have been wanting to follow that humming
Is this a reward?
I have the best sit while you’re singing!!!

I felt they were for me
That is exactly what I see
I wish this never ends
Even if it looks you are tense

I’m surprise it is happening
I want to stop the world from spinning
I hope it stays like this
After I hear you say my name without a miss

Where We Are – vi

Holy 06′

Oh no! I can’t control no more
Everything is leading me to you
Here, there, anywhere,
Is faith misleading me to you?

You are always on peeking,
I’m starting to feel something
They said you are
So I’m wanting to get something

This will not go somewhere
if I don’t blew a start
I wanted you to get the cut
And I feel it’s not just a fart

Days of salvation is giving me determination
Many chances but I screw for protection
Until we hope this is the part
Coz my gut now have the start

“Hi! Can I ask you something?” I see your smile, it became “Uhm, nothing”
“They want to hear your favor. It might give endeavor” Oh no! my gut already shut!

So between the conversation, I pray on coalition. And it was answered coz you said
“I am just like this. so no offend”

The path is now observed
I’m cleared on my lair
So let me live according to will
It is enough that I know what is real

Keeping Positive

Hello!! Gladly, I have my PC back to my desk again. After two weeks of my PC staying in our office, I took it home again.

Imagine, someone who is living his life with computers actually have no touch of computers at all. Well, don’t feel bad with it. Because the only bad thing that happens with me is that I was unable to update my blog and visit other blogs. I may still was able to use the internet and computers at the office, unfortunately, I cannot do personal stuffs anymore. I just have tons of laziness there.

Okay, as I said, it was really not a bad thing that it happened. I have spent times that I usually spend with PC to do normal stuffs. Such as chatting with the neighbors, doing some exercise, hanging out with friends, joining events, watching quality movies from DVD and celebrating Mama Mary’s birthday!!!

Yep, last week was so busy for me even not having a PC to get my attention. Hopefully it will also lessen our electricity bills for this month, I usually pay for them. I got my self involve with Wordcamp Philippines, the first Wordcamp held in Asia. I wanted to blog about it last week as well, but I never had the chance with a proper mood. Of course, I don’t want to give a not so exciting article to read. Like what most of my readers said, they love the way I write. And I really appreciate them appreciating my posts; even I still don’t think they are good enough.

One person actually shared with me that “if you do something, do it with world class standards“. And it really stick in my heart that is why I just never do works just to do it, I do it to look good.

Okay, so I was at Wordcamp, I really did not learn a lot, because most of the discussed topic I have already got the idea. At first, I thought it was really a waste for me to come, because the only person I know that went there as well did not really talk with me that much; she was with most of the people she may know more.

As the day pass, the topic of SEO is really what interest me. And the speaker was Hans A. Koch, an American who works with SEO. At his session, I was really the one who got a lot of different question about the topic, while others would just ask about page ranking in Google. Be honest, bloggers just really think about Google page rank for sponsored post right, lol, well, SEO may help, but I see it to b more than just that. It was really hard for me to understand this thing until that seminar. Even with the basics, I was so clueless.

Since I got most of the question, Hans definitely recognized me during the idle times. I get to have a chit chat with him, and found out that we did meet before. My boss actually works with him, and he did visit our office several times before. And here is the good part. They are actually going to have workshops regarding SEO, which basically cost 10k-15k per attendee. I discussed about it with him and actually get to asked if he could fit me in for free. The great part is that he thinks that I may be able to volunteer as an assistant there if ever. A really great deal right? I would not just be listening, but I may be conducting as well. Meaning I get to study about it first hand before the actual workshop. It really makes me excited, so please hope that I get to be a volunteer.

A day after that, we celebrated Mama Mary’s birthday from heaven.

When it comes to Mama Mary, I would really never ever say no. I actually always fight with God, complains a lot to him, but with Mama Mary, I don’t really want to turn my back on. She is the most precious person who ever lived. She never says no to my prayers. And the best part, she gave it exactly how I asked it. I am just really ashamed now because I have once turned my back from my responsibility for her, just to meet the world. But now, I can see her smiling face again knowing that I somehow please her.

So, after that, back to the office for a week again, and another get together yesterday. After touching again my PC, I decided to complete the songs of my favorite artists. Few hours ago as I create this post, I have completed the KHANGKHUNGKHERRNitZ album. Uploaded hem to my hosting server since it got a huge space. One by one, I hope to get all I want.

Oh yeah, I also learn about the importance of color to a photo. And damn, these pictures I have shared were enhances by me. They look like they were taken from an expensive camera, but they are only from my mobile camera. I really want to learn more!!!

Where We Are – v

June 12,2005

A year have passed, of playing peek or seek
since the day you caught my eyes
I just can’t stop, in turning my self to a geek

So we play wild west, it was so fine
I haven’t seen you for some time
they turned me as the Indian, my long hair do
another surprise, cause you did same with you

Is this a coincidence, why only me and you. what about the others? can no one else act like a fool too?

I want to take it off, but no I can’t
I’m placed in the contest, and then you dance
I have to follow with no were to hang out
but staring at you, makes me fall down

to be continued…

A Far Gratitude

Wow, I am already starting to loose my idea how to start a post. I am getting lazy again with the things I do. For about a week, I have experienced again being numb. Oh yes, I have felt another pathetic impulse in my brain again. I felt like God makes me feels that he is taking away everything again one by one with a snap of his fingers.

Just after I posted last week about my new computer set up as my first office, it suddenly did not boot the next day after I came back from work. Just when I have my adrenaline on its top shape to work out the projects I have been neglecting due to my laziness, my PC did not work cooperate!!

Oh boy, I have been getting to close again with my best bud. Test and challenges were starting to get unease with me. I actually do not understand why I even have to mention him here in my blog again. I know he knows me already, He he he

Actually, I was just probably pissed finding out that my hot cutie crushes from before (during school days) got weird looking lovers. Not that I am envious, but I felt insulted really! I know I am not that really that hot cutie looking guy myself, but I can really bet that I look far much better than their lovers. Life is really unfair!! I can take it if these chicks were neglecting me before because I don’t look good enough for them, but finding that they would be with someone who is worse than me really makes me feel miserable about myself.

What can I do about it right. Sometimes, you just really have to let out your depressions to really move on.

So, when I got my PC not working during my day offs, I actually found that I still have my skills in cooking. Even thou I have never done any cooking for years, I even notice I got better. I get to make sure everything is clean. I always remind my brother who is helping to wash his hands before touching the foods. He he, my hygiene is better than before. With the taste, don’t even ask because I still suck at it.

Well, It was my parents birthday week, my mom last Wednesday, and my day this coming Wednesday. And that cooking day was my mom treating their co-chapters on her celebration. Well, they will have a party on my dad’s day, to celebrate both with friends and family, while I will be at work when it happens.

Gees, I can understand these stuffs that happen to me. Even if I complain a lot about everything, I always just let it pass by. What would continuous complaining do right? Just let it go away, and everything will always turn out fine. Here is a recap to explain better

• Last Wednesday I fixed my new table at home to be my office. Went to work at night. So excited to work again with my new space.
• Thursday morning got home my PC suddenly did not boot up. All files are in danger.
• Thursday evening Off from work, so depressed cannot do anything with a non-working PC.
• Friday, tried fixing PC with a friend. No luck. Aisha needs assistance on downgrading her WordPress site. With no working PC, I need to find a way. Went next hood to use Aunt’s PC. Spend the rest of my day helping mother.
• Aisha got pissed not being able to access her site. (Have no clue, left all communication devices)
• Saturday, fixed Aisha’s problem. Work back at office. Surf the net, finding status of old friends and crush.
• Sunday, went to work with no energy. Co-worker got me addicted with FaceBook. Went home, spends time with God

It really is so funny that even when you start feeling so down, there is always something better to come. When my PC never works, it allows me to have some time to take a rest from working with computers, even if I spend a day trying to fix it, I get to find that I still have some cooking skills, and some bonding with few family members.

When I found out that my former crush from schooldays did not become better today, I realize that I was an Ugly duckling, and I get better every year. I hope I will be a real hunkylicious guy.

Just when I feel I am loosing a friend because I am always embracing my self, I realize that I always get to make it up to them.

And with all these trouble again, makes me prove that God is really so tricky just wanting us to have a serious talk with him once in a while.

Oh well, I know that I will be back on the track of being busy again. I hope somebody does my laundry, because I still cannot see myself having another off for a month! This coming Saturday and Sunday is suppose to be my off for the week, but I will have to go camping at WordCamp, on Saturday, then celebrate Mama Mary’s birthday on Sunday (going to show how we celebrate it on Monday)

And guess what, sponsor offers are coming back. And I am declining them.

Transfer Month

Wow! A lot of transferring seems to happen this month for me.

• First of all, I transferred my domain and hosting.
• I also transferred my interest to a much productive stuffs.
• The company transferred my focus to a new project.
• Then our company transferred office. (They gave me a nice wooden table and some old office chairs)
• I transferred my computer to the new table I got from our office.
• But then again, my mom transferred my computer so they can have the table as a new dining table.

Hmm, I wonder who would send me a money transfer.

Nevertheless, things are still making me a survivor. It’s really been hard since I decided to focus on my goals to become a great man. I even also plan to maybe transfer bank because my account is already almost empty. I used most of my savings because I need to invest for my business and to have the tables and chair be delivered to our house. Hey, I can never get something like this for free again, it’s an emergency situation!!

Got two executive chairs (8,000 to 10,000 pesos worth for a new one) that just needs a little repair, and the dining table (The company got it for 11,000 pesos, hand made Narra wooden table)that we used as our office table in our company. They needed to get rid of 8 tables, few were sold, but I got this one for Free.

This table is actually our old dining table, and my mom insisted to place the table cover instead so we can start using the new dining table for a party. My old computer table was also needed for something for a while, and I guess it will be the table for the TV after, or maybe a study table for my brothers.

We are not really that rich, so seeing this improvement really makes me shiver to visualize what the future can really give me. Oh boy, I’ll make sure my first office will really be cool and awesome. And no mom shall control of how I want it to look like.

This is really rewarding to me, and I know God planned it well. Even I am struggling to achieve all my plans, he never forgets to supply me all the things I need. I really hope I will never forget to thank him with my actions as well.

There is one more thing I really need to have, a partner in my crimes. Even before I started with these stuffs I do, I try to be affiliated with people who might be interested. But they always screw up. Even if I met a new person, there is always something wrong. I have one last person I know that can really fit in perfectly. With her skills and wits, I know it can really work out to the extreme!

But I have a little problem that I need to over come. I don’t know if this is a test, or if fate is really manipulating things. But I have to act soon; before someone else publishes the books I wanted to write before I can even write them. It takes two to tango as they say, so I need someone to dance with me all day!!

Girly what?

Finally, my blog is set up again running. After weeks of transferring my hosting account and domain registration, my blog domain is on set again!

I believe nobody missed me. Who am I anyway? I am just a loser dude who firstly establishes his blog life inside a girly niche. But, who cares?

I really don’t want to blab about this, but I think it is time now for me to make this blog really a personal blog. Realizing the first time I was thinking about what domain name I should have, I kind of think I will really keep this domain forever. And now, Anything Goes w/ Pahn (agpahn.net) already gave me a more personal approach.

When I remember before I decided why I should blog, I realize that it is just all about money. I really don’t want to waste my time and energy to something that will not be a profit for me. I just started this blog life because I found out its potential in money making. But after 7 months of gaining experience and knowledge of earning money from blogs, I realize that it is really not for me.

Yes, I did get some sponsored post, but I cannot see how I can grow from it. After realizing this, I also remembered that ever since a kid, I always want to stay on something that I can make myself grow for the better.

I am not saying that I am going to stop earning money online. But instead, I would grab better opportunities that would stick with me even in the future.

Okay, now to start ranting. I have exposed that I started with my personal online business with PrincessDomain.com. It is an e-commerce business that sells domain names, web hosting, email accounts and other stuffs that would help you to be in the information highway (internet). Many wondered why I chose having that girly name. To officially answer that question, it was a part of my business plan. Because if you create a business that has a large competition, choosing a good brand name that is easy to be labeled would be a big plus

Just like GoDaddy.com. It is easy to remember right? And today, it is the world’s number one registrar. So if I put my business on a commercial, it is surely that the market will easily remember PrincessDomain.com once they decide to purchase an online space.

I know that this will not be earning big soon enough. Why? It is because I am not going to start marketing it yet. And I wanted to really market my business once I am sure I can already give a quality service to potential clients. And hey, famous companies or website took years before they got really popular.

If you are visiting me because I visited your site and comment there to just comment me back, you should know that, that is what you call marketing. So if someday you never see my name visiting your site, which just means that I am marketing my other website that could really give me good earnings and income.

Anyway, just to answer the issue of staying myself on a girly niche. Actually, I love girls!!! Even thou not all the blogs I visit are so interesting for me as a guy; I get to learn from them. I have to admit that I learn to pick up my style on hooking up with ladies by actually knowing what they want. And I am sure that women would approve that they want guys to know them, and what they really want.

I started wanting and learning about girls since I got dumped by one. Yes, I admit that I was dumped once. I was so obsess with a specific girl back on high school, even some times on college. That was the reason why I was so eager to try understanding what a girl really want. After I moved on, I was so pleased on knowing other women can be really sweet.

This just gives me an idea right now. I am going to add dating tips here in my blog.

Wow, I have another long boring post. I hope I can give more interesting articles if I have this long type of post. But then again, I just want to officially mention that this blog (Anything Goes w/ Pahn) will be the official personal life blog of me, Pahn.

I hate my Patheticness – iv

Disappointed, that’s what I said
when you step away with your friends
what did I do? Am I scaring you?
So just forget it, I thought your true

I did that, not wanting to impress
or make a move that create some sweat
it sweeps me away, when you said those lines
“I don’t believe in courting” yes, that is so fine

But when I try to do a little speak
you keep staying away which make me weak
so forget it, its all just be fine
but why did tommorow I catched you leering with my eyes?

to be continued…

T.G.I.F.

Thank God, It’s Friday!!!

Yep. I really do give thanks to God every Friday. Just when every body is asking me to go for a gimmick on Friday nights, I can’t. I just tell them I have a date.

I am not really a religious guy doing this, but I know this is a privilege to do this. Being a member of a movement started by God himself is really a privilege. I don’t know what really to say, but I know one reason why I decided to do this, to thank him…

I just don’t understand why his blessings just keep on coming even if I continue to stay away from him. We all know that he knows all. But making me understand what he wants to happen, I really don’t know…

Well, I just don’t want to care anymore. To tell you the truth, this life I am in now is not mine. Even if I still decide what I do, it is all for him.

Even when I feel depressed at times, these times are just seconds and can last for a minute or two. Not even a single strand of my hair will be harmed. And he promised it.

I know I am not the only one who receives his blessings. Many of us do. With all the things he does for us, there is only one thing I know what I decided to do, to offer my life back. It is my decision to do what I want to do, but it is his will that is always make them happen.

Did you actually know that it is really super effective giving a time for God? Just like having a relationship with your lover or family. You need constant communication. And ever since I have been doing this, I have never seen my self complaining from my heart.

I do complain a lot with stupid matters, but these complain are just blabbing as a reaction. I never really have any complain that I stick to my heart. Just like depression, it only last for seconds or a minute.

Everyday is a new day, while my weekly duty is something to look forward to. Doing this gives my every month a success, while every year is a fulfillment.

I need to go now. Tonight is another night…

I hate my Patheticness – iii

I am such a crap. So pathetic when it comes to you all the time. Why does it have to be like this? Basing my relationship with you from a social networking website. What the hell is wrong with me?

First time I joined,
I added you
I have a crush on your sister,
that’s why I know you
Still have a love of my life,
I have no intentions for you

Surveys are so in, so as well you give in. I couldn’t help it, its so public and interesting.

Your answers are what I need,
the girl I to be a friend.
So I sent you a message,
we met and you just pretend

to be continued…

My Need for Speed

I love driving so much, but due to expensive gasoline, I avoid myself strolling once a week just for fun. Either going to the mall, or just passing by my Crush’s neighborhood.

Since I am now in total control of my life, I am very aware on budget with my money. And driving on the open road is now not an option for my fun.

Getting inspired from another blogger (Kuku) posting her newly customized car, I realized that I missed my true need for speed. Seeing a pink car made me realize where I really did start loving the drive. Need for Speed Underground!!!

The game actually allows you to customize your own ride as well. Good thing I still have a copy of an old version of the game. I remembered way back before when I was just renting on a computer shop just to play. I am even making sure that I have my own unit so that I have my saved game only for me.

Another thing I love about this game are the small movies you can unlock as you win each match. I actually remember way back that no one were able to beat me in any racing game after I learned how to drive the real thing. I was able to mix my acquired knowledge from real driving and the skills from the computer game. I was unbeatable!!!

I even dream about joining the tournaments for this game or other computer racing game. Unfortunately, I was still young, and I do not have my own consoles to practice extremely. Plus the gaming industry in my country is not that really supportive for young talents like me.

I stop playing most games since I work for a living. And since I learned how to drive a real car that is where I raise my adrenaline. Too bad I am not able to push everything to the limit.

Still, I am aiming to be able to drive on a real race track. Hopefully I get to drive on a NASCAR race track someday. But I am sure that while I am in my thirties, I will be able to have a customize car of my own that I could even place on car shows.

You know why I am confident to accomplish all these someday? Of course, there are lot of hot sexy girls loving guys with nice wheels.

Searching for Partners

Work Work Work Work Work. I always work. Never end of works. I’m a WORKAHOLIC!!!

Well, I am not alone. Many in this world are. And I really love meeting those kinds of people. People who are serious, disciplined, professional, motivated and dreamers. These qualities are what I see on those who really make it to the best of their career. And for those who make it more than they expected, have a real connection with God.

Well, I really do have tons of ideas on what I wanted to do with my life. Not just those ideas as a dream, but ideas that I knew I can do. They all seem to be simple, but I cannot accomplish them by just my self. So, I searched for partners.

When I learned that it is possible to earn money online, I got so interested with it and make me eager to learn more. I think it has been already a year since I got interested on Money Making online. First it sound simple, but through out the year, it got more complicated than ever.

Knowing the tactics, knowing the styles, I figured out wanting not to scam people. Yes, much Money making online are just form of scamming. They are stealing from other people legally. And I don’t like to do it.

I think I was able to realize that after six months of reading, and searching for the easiest ways of earning Money online. I found nothing. Nothing is simple and easy to do. Even scamming takes a lot of effort if you don’t want to get caught.

So I settled everything, trying this and that. Checking others how they do it. And what could be the best. Finding out, I need a lot of things to do if I wish to do them all.

So, as you know, I am going to have my first hosting business. I am in the process of registration and setting everything up to be open soon. But I still am not going to be satisfied with that, because sooner or later, I also might open up an online shop.

I would like to ask and invite those who would like to sell stuffs online, but does not know what to do. Maybe I can place your items in my shop instead. Simply I am looking for partners who I can make business with.

Old School

I was actually surprise bumping into some of my elementary batch classmates at church. They informed me that they were planning of a Reunion for the whole batch with our favorite adviser. Actually, my favorite of all school teachers, I guess. Recalling all the school teachers I had, she was the best for me.

Those approaching me were like of a surprise, because I was just really a snob over these past few years seeing them on the streets. Everything really does changes, and this time proved I had made my social skills improved.

Honestly, I was really the geek/dork/loser in elementary until high school, poor in hygiene, teacher’s pet, nerdy one, etc. I was the one trying to fit, but is not being noticed and pushed away sometimes. But, not looking like what I had in this picture. Still one of my best bud does (hope he doesn’t read this anytime after I shall inform him this site is mine).

Getting in to my high school, there was improvement. Although I am not one of the best in the pack, at least I am in the group (we only have 26 students in my high school batch) At least the high school started good for me, I just am not sure if it ended well.

College, it is totally different with the lifestyle I was showing. With the way I walk, my first college classmates actually thought I was a model or some sort. But seriously, I am just simply portraying the matured guy look who speaks a lot of English. And I was just back stabbed there with a gossip of wanting to have sex with the girl I was always with (one reason for me to drop school)

But hey, I am happy where I am now. Even if school life was cruel to me, night life loved me. I was being thought of an early 30 guy; even I am just still in my teen life. I worked here, worked there, and tried this and that. It helped me grow. And now, I know my goal for my young age. No body believes I am just 20.

I really wondered what will happen in this reunion. I hope I can accommodate enough time for them, as I always am busy. We were supposed to have it this last weekend, but many wanted to adjust due to their busy life. I don’t know who is actually busier than me, but many of them I am sure are still students.

So if you think you think you are being down in school, think again. Peer pressure is not always cool, like being in or not. And if you think you are so cool, you also need to think again. I am saying this base from experience. Because most of my older classmates/schoolmates who always act “to cool for school”, ended up with a much loser life.

Don’t think about yesterday. Live today. And think about the future. That is how I live my happy life. And it works well for me.

Working my Skills with Caffeine?

Oh boy, time is already passing so quickly. And I don’t know if I should still be asking to have the time fast forwarded. Like, when we are at school, or work or seminar or things that we hate doing, time are so slow. We always check the time and hoping it would move quickly.

Every single second, we even get annoyed cause it is running so slow. But when we have something to do, we are always running to get ahead of time!!! And with me, I missed the moments when I wanted time to get so slow and boring, because every single day I am always having something to do. Even my idle time I have something to do. Even if I am not obligated to do those stuffs, I just wanted to do them.

So, I have been trying to find alternatives that can be the best thing to intake with my active life. I found nothing else but still “caffeine”.

What is Caffeine? Basically, they are found from coffee and energy drinks.

I have known about this for a long time. But I just don’t like it. Why? It is because I got trauma of having yellow teeth from High School. I found out then that coffee is one of the causes of having a yellow teeth. But I am all grown up now. And I really do manage to brush my teeth 2-3 times a day. So, I tried coffee again. After years of not drinking a pure black coffee, now with no sugar, I just love them!!! I really like them before, but due to the trauma, I stopped drinking and tried a healthier lifestyle. Due to influences I have been seeing movies, TV shows, etc and all the great characters love coffee. I really don’t believe coffee helps them being great with their character because they are just shows. But seeing friends who are great at their works loving coffee, I started to have second thoughts. Seriously, I do not understand why I do not drink coffee that much, but I drink iced tea a lot. They both can still cause me yellow teeth. And yes!! Iced Tea does have caffeine as well. Same effect huh? So thinking about those great characters, it is caffeine that helps them to be great, not just coffee. Why? I have proven it myself. I am one hell of a great character am I?

So, are you a caffeine person as well? Coffee or tea? If none of them, what is your addiction which may have caffeine as well?

Remembrance for a Change

I don’t care if you will believe on what I am going to show you. I am not sure if I should even share it here. What the heck!!

Remember when I said that I went to heaven as a vacation trip last summer. There are really lots of things that happened there. I just really loved the experience, but a little sad cause I never got a picture remembrance at my phone with new friends I met there.

Actually, there are lots of great experiences I do experience under his grace, but picture or video proofs are just not allowed to be recorded. Because we can only record them from our hearts, and is seal, and can be opened when needed.

But God is always so good. Even if my camera phone was not usable there, he still allowed me to get a copy of the most fascinating experience that week had given me.

Check this out:

Some of you know I do Photoshop, and I do admit that I can create this on a Photoshop myself. But believe me or not, this is a real shot. I even saw half of it that time. I just wasn’t able to see the whole thing because I was busy working on something inside a building, and direct looking at the sun burned my eyes when I took a glimpse about 2-3 seconds I guess. But I did saw half or the rainbow around it and the perfect rays of the sun circling with partial of that cloud shape as a chalice. When I was suppose to tell some of the people I was working with that time, I got pulled to get back on my task and forgot about it until I someone shared this picture. And I never realize it is this amazing with a clear view. The person who actually gave me this copy did not see this in person, and I was working with her that time and even forgot to invite them to take a look. I really thank the one who ever shoot this.

If you are wondering why we have to see it, there is a purpose why this happened with us, and I don’t know if I can share it here. Because when I heard about it, I don’t know if I was even worth to have been under that sky.

Still, I don’t give a damn thing if you would believe or not. The only thing I was sure of is that I thank God with everything that had happened

Who You Are – ii

Wishing this was true, hoping this was new
cause all the freak I turned into
like my eyes glue, on peeking with you

Be nice it’s getting obvious, all your friends are now furious.
They think it is only me, or is it because I don’t play with you?

I am pushed, turned down
what is this all about?
I just come to offer my self
and don’t have a plan to play around

Stop luring me,
I felt it as a trap
All I wanted is to make friends,
with each and everyone in the pack

Oops, just a break. You maybe a wolf, but not they. This pack may not cooperate, cause what I need is not a display. To work with you is a charm, and I don’t want no harm. I am staying like a dum-dum, but when I talk to you, all I do is run!!!

to be continued…

Setting my Business

Lately challenges and success are really juggling into my life. As I like what happened last week, my site was hacked due to lack of security in the server I have paid for. Well, I learned my lesson!!!  After that incident, as I said from my previous post, God has been pouring me again with blessings. I really don’t know how to manage in using all of them, but I guess sharing it to others would be the best way of handling it. How? That’s for me to still find out.

Any how, I just wanted to share to you that soon I shall be opening my own hosting business that surely have high security. And for my beloved supporters who still visits my site, I will make sure I will have something in-store for you. Of course, it will be for free!! So please help me pray to set everything up in no time. I really am excited with this opening soon. I may also bring up a shopping site that is similar, but am still studying if it could be a possibility.

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His Ways are Always Perfect

God is really amazing!!!

Seriously, I should be torn mad with what happened this week. As many of you know, there are websites attacked by a hacking system that was delivered via the hosting servers. I was also sharing a part of my hosting space to Aisha’s blog so she was the one who informed me about it. When I was informed about this, I do not really worry because I have all my access secured. But when I checked the sites, it worried me that my access probably got stolen as well. Few seconds I was panicking until I knew that it was not only mine that got victim by this kid act, it was my hosting server that was attacked, not my actual panel. That was a relief.

Still, Aisha was so damn mad about it. And if we were really in person, she might have been hitting on me physically while we are fixing the damage. But why do I sound positive in my first line at this post? Because God just proved to me again his love.

It really a long story to share here on the net. And I would really still prefer to share them personally. So we if you would love to know more, we can have a cup of coffee sometimes to talk.

Still, here is a recap:

• Last week, I was dreaming that additional ear pierce is keeping me distance him. Friday, I still got an additional one.
• Saturday, I went to work and avoided a favor for him. Then that night was also the hit of Typhoon in our office. Got a text message for an invitation in favor for him.
• Sunday morning we are stranded in the office, and I got the news that my site was hacked. So after getting back to my senses, I decided to accept the invitation, with no question asked even if I have work
• Monday I was able to learn additional knowledge in developing and hacking. And knowing how to avoid these hackers. Finished restoring my site and submitted the sponsors post.
• Tuesday was the day for the invitation; I was given a good excuse to actually not go to the office. So while in heaven, I learned more about his love for me being so pure. Crying my heart out for showing me again how he makes everything so perfect

Still sounds right? Well, I learned a lot. But the thing that is amazingly connected to my internet lifestyle is that I should not care to be cheap. His way was letting me experienced a mild case of hacking before I actually set up a business.

And like I said before, I am broke for a couple of months (and I still am). So while this hacking was happening, I have no cash even on my savings for new hosting plans. But the same incident happened while I have a sponsor who just emailed me and got the money I need to buy another hosting plan. Isn’t that cool? I was able to have the money I need to use.

Couple of days after that, I am still not active to sink myself and embrace him with his love for me. Continuing with my daily life, he showered m again with the solutions to the problems I am worrying. And damn!! He really sets everything in perfect place.

I actually know this ability of him even before. I do understand that we will only notice if we believe. It is really sad to hear that many are asking for help, but not even thanking him back. We just all need to open up our hearts to him, and we shall all see his over flowing love for us.

So, have you already thank him for all those you have with you today? It is never too late you know. Even if it is not a deep prayer, you can just look up and whisper…

…thank you

Who You Are – i

June 12, 2004

I have quit on thinking

this girl I just kept on dreaming

and decided to move on forward

to embrace what life has to bring

And with every step on the way

there was this one day

you were standing all alone

with the stares I can relay

That started the spark, of my full curiosity.. why would a girl like you, even take a glimpse of me?? Do I need to be aware?? or should i need to get prepared?? Because I’m just a mere lad, who got nothing much to share.

The day is passing

while I continue on looking

to the girl I had wanted

but you’re still there staring

You may have not realize, that beyond your stares I can see, because I am wear some shades you bakero!!! and its your eyes I don’t want to deceive.

Oh cut the crap out, I’m running out of rhymes. but let me share to you that this is how you started to catch my eyes…

to be continued…

May Trip

Finally, I just finished checking on the 650 posts that I missed for being on hiatus in a month. How was I able to count these? Well, I am currently subscribed with 85 blogs now. Sadly, most of these blogs are not really serious about blogging as well. I hope to give sometime to fix my online files, so that I could delete those which are not needed.

While I was gone from the internet life, I still am going with my daily job at the office. I did ask for a week of absence or vacation, but that was for my trip to heaven. And you know what; I still did some work there. Why did I say its heaven? It is simply because that is where I find peace of mind. Not worrying about the problems this reality world has to bring to me. It is heaven on earth as they say there. And I did work on volunteering with some stuff. And if in the next decade you are still my loyal readers, friends or just someone who would remember I have said these stuffs, you will understand why I really felt this way from that great place. And I just wanted to add up, I know a real Angel staying here on earth, who is a good drinker as well.

Anyway, after that trip, am back to the office, with tons of penalties for my performance for the whole month of May. Well, money really isn’t worth to skip those things I did and planning to do. But I must do them with discipline. Or else I will fail. Still it sucks that I lost 30% of my supposed income for this month, plus 60% for those I have used in my trip to heaven, plus 20% for personal stuffs I needed to use, like new clothes, bags, transport, foods, etc. So much for a vacation that is tiring. Good thing there are some savings, and I have to get credits and loans, because I was not able to pay the monthly bills.

After that; at first, whenever we have idle time here at the office, my co-workers would watch Korean Drama online, which makes my head look at the monitor as well. And darn, I got addicted for 3 or 4 days of doing marathons. But it’s not bad at all actually, even thou I thought of it as wasting time.

At the last week of May I was able to complete fixing my PC and installing the necessary programs I needed to study about web developing, programming, designing, etc. So I first try studying about Illustrator, and heck as you could see my first finished product the Anime version of Pahn. And finishing that makes me eager to complete my blog theme. Even thou I am poor with he color combination, am still glad many liked it.

Lazy Blogging?

So, I have been using RSS readers to basically see which blogs have the current update so I can guest dropped to them, so they’ll remember to drop by to mine (just another strategy to earn traffic). But to be honest, I only see few interesting post. I never bother to open their sites because it is way too personal to be commented at. I mean, who is interested in know they have a boring day and nothing much has happened to them?

So, I guess I can share a little something if you have nothing to post. Try to read other interesting articles. You don’t need to read everything, just those things that you interest with. Like if you live dancing, check out for dance videos. Adventure, check out travel blogs. Or, even blog about some interesting shows on TV. And if you are creating a personal blog, just relate the topic to your experiences. There will never be a dull moment.

So why don’t you try it? And never say
“I have a boring day and nothing much to share today”
again

Back to Phase One…

For everybody who has understand the true meaning of challenges, also understood the meaning of hardship and trials. These past few weeks, I have been not so active on blogging because many new challenges have already been opened to me. With these challenges that come, I certainly was surprised to see it was harder than I thought. All I believe is that I am already expecting the hardest will, but something is always tougher.

First I have been planning to have some business that could probably help me in my future journey. Knowing that I have a big goal is already pressuring enough to attend. Finding out things are that are not meant to be is an additional stress.

Last week, I just got banned from Google Adsense, which means I have lost the ability to earn from Google under my name. I may ask my friend to put here her adsense instead so the space would be accumulated.
Not getting sponsored post is an additional depression to take. It feels like that I am not meant to earn this way. Call me anything you want, but I am seriously losing the mood with all the failures showing in my new venture.

As they say, “When the door closed to you, there are always new windows to open. So take your chance to jump in“. Every time I fail into something, something always better are to come. I may really call myself lucky to the fact that I am always able to see things positively.

Lost in my Google capability, switched my option to be able to review other options. Failure in the ranks sets me a new feature to allow me some sponsored post. Not getting the clients I needed, gives me a newer opportunity.

So back to phase one…

Backing Out? Be a Bum? Don't!!!

Everybody is having problems with their life. Who doesn’t? I do not exclude myself to that fact. I always have problems. I grew up from it. I learn to live with it.

These past few weeks, I offered myself to help out some friends in improving something for themselves. I was willing to support financially in an organization’s fund raising stuffs. Honestly, many in our group are just bums. No work or school, basically financial status isn’t even stable. I was one of them, but today, I have a stable job you may call it. I must really be an abnormal person. Because if I am normal, I may be still like them, a bummer who have no directions in life, a bummer who have no dream, a bummer who continues to cling on their parents. I wished I am still a bummer. Living simple, thinking simple, problems are simple.

I am a bummer before. But I have dreams. I am too lazy at home, but I worked hard for other people. And even if I am still going for my goals, I would love to help fellow bummers to choose their path. Unfortunately, I am not in the position to do that. I must continue working myself up. Be more focus!! Check your improvements!!

As I tried to help out fellow bummers, it is too obvious that they don’t want to help themselves. There is nothing I could do to change that. I must know because I was in their shoes. I must not feel guilty that you are going up, while they still go down. They are not the only people in this word. We must be inspired accordingly, not be over friendly.

We tried to have a personal fund raise by selling the Philippine famous Halo-Halo. I shall take care of the initial funds needed, and all they have to do is sell it. They were all excited and believed that it will work out. So we give it a shot. On the day of the preparation, I actually did all the work. And on the day of the selling, they did not come. I don’t know what the hell the problem was, but I gave my money in already. So I was forced to sell it, and did not sleep for days because I have to go to work at night. In the three days run, I still wasn’t able to completely get my money back, but have proven that I must not help those who don’t want to help themselves.

So I’ll just go support the actual fund raise (I am willing to sell my new phone anyway) instead of supporting those who does not have the desire for improvement. Giving options is all I can do for now. Let them work for it. They’ll do what they want, not what you think. Just mind your own business. And think of your own money problems.

It is indeed in reality that “Crab Mentality” is still clinging into most of us Filipinos. That is one reason we always back out on what we have started. Just because we fell down doesn’t mean we have to listen to other people mocking us. We have to identify the lost. No!!! That is not how it works!!! We have to always check our improvements. Stand up again. Learn from mistakes. Never give up and still live everything joyfully!!!

Also, I just got disabled from my Google Adsense account; I never realize that this would happen. My visitors are not improving again; I may have not created good post that visitors would come back for. I am forgetting to maintain my blogging system due to extra activities, must be more strict with my schedule. My healthy lifestyle is not improving, I need more inspiration. I am missing my princess, must act normal around her!!!

Multi Tasking LifeStyle

I officially have different lifestyle these days. And I am targeting to have six. You will really find me a crazy person in real life. I actually focus my self to be known as a crazy thinking person, which I do not fail to do. But beyond that personality, I still manage to be appreciated.

1. Daily Job (Career Life) – This is actually the foundation of all what I do in my life. This is providing my back to work on the rest of my lifestyle. I get to live my life because of this. Without this, I am like a hand without the thumb. Just imagine, picking up a big piece of rock without your thumb. You can pick it up, but does not feel comfortable carrying it right?
2. Daily Life (Personal Life) – I must always not forget to improve my own life status. Every time I have a free time, I do stuffs to improve myself and living style. I fix my room, exercise; do the laundry, some cooking of unknown mixes, hobby, friends, neighbors or what so ever. This is actually a pointer for my life. Like pointing out of who I am, I never miss to just keep myself improving.
3. Internet Life (Cyber Life) – Well, should I explain this further? I am a blogger, surfer, friend and money maker. I will be a future developer, designer, and maybe a celebrity. As third in what I am managing to express and find myself a place here in the internet world. You are reading this through the internet, and I am doing many things like this here. You can speak for your self, because you also have this as you stumble reading this post via my website.
4. God’s Servant – With all the things I do, I do not forget to be a servant of God. I am not religious or in any form, but I do not give a damn hell when choosing the side of God. No questions ask. Everything I do is all because of him. I may not be following our religions duty, such as attending to church or liking the traditions. But whenever he speaks for our presence, I make sure I’ll be there. I don’t care how I mess with my other life, because he gave it all to me. He can take it anytime he wants. And believe me, he did before. I have died and offer my life to him. He is the reason why I continue living.
5. Love Life?? – I said four, but I target six. This is one thing that I will make sure to have, and hopefully soon. Because of the things I do, I do not have time for this lifestyle. I know everybody wanted this, so who am I to keep it a secret. I do not know still how can I live this part, but as they say, it will come without any expectation. I wonder who will I be sharing this?
6. Night Life – Well, I really do have this even before I started to really live a life. Today, with a very busy schedule, I only live this twice a month. I wanted to make sure this could be a part of me at least every day someday. Probably when the time I would start to really work on with the career I wanted to make sure I am going to be for the rest of my life, I can do this. Or, when I really have my Internet Life is a successful way of earning money everyday.

As you can see, there is a figurative hand with the life I have in each fingers. I actually figure that out when I was trying to explain what life do I live now when I meet some friends. And surely, try using a hand losing just one of those fingers. My hand can still be useful, but not for all circumstances. Like when losing my pinky finger, a love life is not really a big lost, but it feels ridiculous doing stuffs without the pinky finger. If I lose my thumb, I may not be able to function very fast in every thing I do without money in my pocket, which my Daily Job helps me to fix. Or, try typing in your key board without a pointing finger, what do you feel? Using the ring finger, it is a silent worker. It is really a helping finger to ease most of the things you do. For believer, I know you understand, for those who are not, try figuring it out.

And of course the middle finger, it is the tallest of all. And I see that it will be showing a big part of me. Someday with all I do, there is a part of internet in it, actually even just now. My job has the internet, my daily life enhance with knowledge from the internet or hobbies that internet gives, I wanted to do something for God which I think internet is my part way of doing it, love live I guess you can figure it out and of course partying are announce via net.

She likes the Elevator

I am not sure if you have read about Miss Anime Girl. I mentioned her on my post before valentines, and delete it after two days. I’ll spoil the copy at the end of this post so you’ll know how I met her.

I do not really want to rant about it, but maybe I just have nothing much to share because I am hooked with my new phone right. So, if you remember one of my post last week, I went to a party then headed to Embassy. The night before that, I actually went to her office, gladly she was alone, and I invited her. To be honest, I never invited a girl to go out in person. It’s either calling them, or chatting, or email, or by other people. Even thou she was not able to come, due to work, I am still proud I have over come that fear. Fear of being torpe. Yep, Pahn is a Stupid guy when it come to a very interesting girls.

So, this girl, we really met at the elevator (story from below). Not very often because we do not have the same shifts. But I really enjoy it. The other day, I walk myself to work because I am so early, this is one of my exercise routine when possible. Just when I am near to our building, I saw her coming in so I rushed as quick as I could. Luckily, I arrived just as the elevator closed.

Never Give up!!!

I am so exhausted these past few weeks. My brain is all drained out. I wanted a vacation, but I can’t!!!

I never encountered to be so much hectic with my schedule. But this is just the beginning. I wanted to quit my day time job, but I still have no security if I do that.

I decided to go blogging to actually be able to share about my adventure in gaining my goals. Be able to update in showing how fantastic life is.

But, would it really matter?

Dang, probably I’m just so exhausted. Today we had to do a general cleaning at the house. Our part time maid hasn’t shown up since New Year. “Is his also a part of the new life? Doing my own laundry?”

Oh crappy, crappy me. I need some excellent boost right now.

It seems that almost every blog I visit, they are concerned about PR (Page Rank). To my surprise, I thought personal life bloggers doesn’t worry about that. Before I started blogging, I have done tons of research about increasing PR (actually, it’s more known last year as traffic, but there are always new terms for stuff). If I really get a time off and can focus on blogging, I promised to share to you most of the knowledge I earn from increasing PR. I really wish I could apply it to my domain now, but doing it really needs to be given some time.

Know your Job!

A priest was driving along and saw nun on the side of the road he stopped and offered her a lift which she accepted.

She got in and crossed her legs, forcing the habit to open and reveal a leg.
The priest looks and nearly has an accident.

After controlling the car, his stealth fully slid his hand up s hand slide up her leg. The nun looked at him and immediately said. “Father, remember psalm 129?”
The priest apologizes profusely and removes his hand but is unable to remove his eyes from her leg.

Further on when he changes gear he lets the hand slide up the leg again. The Nun once again says “Father, remember psalm 129.”
Once again the priest apologizes “Sorry sister but you know the flesh is weak.”

Arriving at the convent the nun gets out and the priest goes on his way. Once he arrives at his church he rushes to the bible and looks up psalm 129. It said:

“GO FORTH AND SEEK, FURTHER UP YOU WILL FIND GLORY”

MORAL OF THE STORY: YOU SHOULD ALWAYS BE WELL INFORMED IN YOUR JOB OR YOU MIGHT MISS A GREAT OPPORTUNITY.

He he, Our Boss actually placed a copy of this to the comfort room wall. Actually, I did not find the idea of using a priest and nun nice, but the MORAL is really good.

Today, I hated again the way my co-workers treated me. I may not be close to them, but they should be telling me if they have any problems with me. I know a kill joy with some of their trips, but they should not care about it right?? I mean, I would rather study about stuffs than watching porn with them. I have so many business opportunities to plan and accomplish someday, so mind your own business, and do your job.

Oh well, I just can’t find time to compose some post that I can relate to myself. I am just damn to busy. I do some blog hop on my idle time in the office instead of fixing my ideal layout. Then when I got home, I still do blog hop. But when I want to try creating a post, my mind is being messed up!

There are lots of topics I wanted to share, about Anything that Goes with our daily life. But everyday is a new day. Hopefully I am able to share useful ideas from my previous post.

I really wanted to have the ASUS Eee PC instead of a laptop first. I check with ASUS from SM MegaMall and said that they will release it again soon. I am so excited. Cause with it, I would just allow me to use my time from commuting to still have access in the internet. It means I can use it to blog hop or create a post even on a bus. I will also be reachable anytime anywhere that is a wifi zone. This new life is really exciting.

By the way, can anybody teach me how to have the other emoticons or so called grins to your post? Those with another designs, researching about it steals my time to bloghop, maybe you can help me out.

Miracle..

Perhaps you have heard or watched the news today in the Philippines. Today was the feast for The Black Nazareth (The Black Christ). It is a celebration where thousands of devotees gathered to the Quiapo Church and try getting close to the statue of the image.

Oh, what the heck. I am not really that good at describing such terms. *doh
Well, I have to say, most of you probably saw the news about this. Some people really die for this occasion.

Many would say it is such a stupid feast, huh? The reason for many of these devotees, are “Miracles”. Some would still say it’s dumb. What the heck!! Why should they have to care?

Do you believe in miracles? Well I do ^_^!!! For some of us who were already able to experience it, just can’t realize it. It would really be fun each and everyone can notice it.

Okay, okay I am not preaching here. I am just expressing some thoughts. I am not sure why I decided to just create this kind of post due to what I saw in the news.

I really was craving for two day what should I post next; I have so many ideas of what to post, what to include. But making it to long would make it not to interesting to read for everyone.

Actually, one thing probably that makes me decide to start this post with the Black Nazareth’s feast, is the song that I kept playing while I was working in the office. “Never Give Up by Session Road”.

NEVER GIVE UP

It’s such a wonderful day
Knowing that you’re alive
Thank you for sending me
The message just on time

Got lost in the wilderness
Of burning fire
It drained my soul so quickly
Nearly caused my life

You gave me a test
I’m sorry I failed
But you’re ever forgiving
You even took the pain

Never give up, no never give up
These words are ringing in my head it just won’t stop
Never give up, no never give up
Be strong now wipe your tears the world has so much love

I doubted you once
Forgotten many times
My Lord I’m sorry
That I questioned you every night

But you’re still around
You always have been
Oh please my dear almighty friend
Forgive me my sins

Never give up, no never give up
These words are ringing in my head it just won’t stop
Never give up, no never give up
Be strong now wipe your tears the world has so much love

I want to thank you Lord
For showing me the way back home
And now my life will never be the same

I know it is an old song, but today was just the first time I actually dig in the lyrics and got carried away with it. You can just search for the actual song in the net, but I’ll leave the lyrics here too. I am still not used on how to place a music file on the post, so just search for it if you want to hear it. ^_^

In every hardship in life, Filipinos are surely the toughest. No matter what happens, we know how to smile.

How about you? Maybe you have a much easier lifestyle than those who have problems even finding shelter. You are even reading this, so you definitely experienced using a computer.

Why do I keep on smiling? Cause I am still crazy!! Hehehe

Keeping the problems would just be an additional problem. Why not replace it with a solution from your head? Is it really that hard?
It is just all in our head right??

P.S. Regarding my sites rank on search engines, it got lower again. It’s really going to be hard to actually beat MySpace and sites from Europe. I really need to target worldwide readers to stay on the search engine’s rank.

Gained Ranks

I really am glad to know that my site is gaining already some ranking. It maybe not that much yet, but it’s a wonderful start already. If you try Google searching my name, Pahn, my website is already on 3^rd as I type here now, while few hours ago it is on the 4^th listing. It really gives me the chills while AGpahn has 7 results already, all connected to me. Last week AGpahn is asking if I mean afghan, and there was no result. But today, it is at the search engine. Yippee!!!

It is funny that I decided to use English as a medium for my site. When I realized that I do targeted the Philippines for my majority viewer. I apologized for having my last post talking like normal Americans talk to one another. I probably got this way of talking from watching Hollywood shows. I’ll try to be simpler with my content. It’s just fine if you don’t feel like reading whole post, visiting it for at least a minute a day would be enough. If you feel guilty to not leave a comment, you may always just check on the first paragraph. I’ll guess I’ll just do it that way. The first paragraph would be enough for a post to be commented already. And my life’s journey will be the things for you to linger about.
I actually planned to be able to give useful information in the future for other researchers to dig in. It’s a little complicated to explain, but I hope I may be able to elaborate it someday. Plus I am practicing my grammars with this.

Warning: This could be a long post which is on English. I just felt like writing many things that happened, Hahaha this is because I am doing nothing right now at work. I just blog hop a while ago for a couple of hours and had a food tripping. It’s really up for you if you felt like reading or not, or you can get back to read this post if you just wanted to waste time.

Okay now. As the life changing goes another day, actually last Saturday, I pass by the mall before going to work to buy a webcam. I noticed that the ASUS Eee PC that I planed to buy after completing my savings is not on display anymore. I firstly try to check out the cheap webcam that I think would be stylish for my taste. Unfortunately, the sales clerk did not recommend me the one I picked because of the low quality of the pixels. He offered me something on the same price, but I did not like the looks, even if it is with better pixels. It’s his fault I choose not to buy it anymore, because he makes me wonder again about buying quality stuffs. Too bad just when I didn’t feel like thinking about what I am buying, he makes me think again. So I went to check on the ASUS Eee PC why it is not on display anymore and when shall the stores have another stock. I got frustrated for a few minutes after knowing that it is just a limited edition notebook so I have no choice but to check on the laptop that is on displayed. As I do a window shopping, I realized again that I can still buy the laptop on time as I target it for me to have. The Eee PC is quite cheap that’s why I wanted it first. But if I got successful getting a credit card on April; I might be able to have the laptop just before June. I just really felt that if I do not need to buy stuffs as credits, due to some past experiences. Our family, all the way to my uncle and cousins relationship, needed to borrow moneys before due to some crisis problem. Just being a smart ass on handling money.

So I went to work, Saturday night shift, and do the usual thing. I tried to blog hop, but I am just to busy with my duty. I was also able to pass by an optical shop at the mall which offers a cheap eye wear. I was being eager to buy my parents proper reading glass, with the right lens that would suite their eyes. Specially my dad who thought that the one he bought in the streets is good enough for him to be able to read; even thou he still has clear vision. They are so exaggerating with stuffs. So I hope to drag my mom and dad to the mall to surprised them that I will buy them reading glasses (Must be both so no one gets envious again with how I handle my money). But when I arrived home, in the morning, my mom firstly asked me if I could lend her some money to buy my uncle some expensive wine for his birthday tomorrow. [Oh great, as if they always know when I have money.] But of course it is always just said “if you could lend us, I’ll pay you back”. This never really happens. So I said I have no money. This makes be decide not to bring them to the optical that day. I would definitely need to spend large amounts of money not just for the glasses, but also for some gifts and wine for my uncle. (Kuripot ako!!! << uy, Tagalog)

How am I able to save money for my target laptop if I spend on things which are just for wants? As a smart ass in handling money, I only buy things that are needed, but not those things that are just wanted.

I woke up in the afternoon, they are not home. I was thinking that they might be at the mall to buy some groceries, or maybe buy the wine with their own money. This is because they just usually do that when there is an occasion. With out thinking, I called them to confirm if they were. If they were, I would just tell them to say and wait for me so I can drop them by the optical shop. Unfortunately, they are not [Lucky me…]. I was just thinking positively on how I am supposed to budget again my money. Since Eee PC is not an option anymore for me, I need to really gain a laptop, which cost double or triple from it. Of course, if I am going to buy a laptop, it should be at least not being left behind the technology. I wanted a something with the latest features at least, Wifi, webcam, Vista, DVD writer, Dual Core, and enough memory and speed. So I am really squeezing my budget this early. [Oh, by the way, the laptop or notebook is part for me to be able to change the Lifestyle I am telling about from my previous post.]

So much for me for being smart ass in money, I still screwed up. As I went to work, Sunday Night shift, I was thinking from the FX what food I am going to buy for dinner to myself. I am really craving for chicken these past few days, I don’t know why yet. I have a stub for McDo which makes the Fried Chicken just cost Php50, while Kenny Rogers was on my mind. I am battling in my mind where should I drop by to buy foods. I was thinking if I should pass by Trinoma, where Kenny Rogers in on the way to MRT, or exactly on MRT, where I can decide to ride the bus so I could sleep and just buy some snacks on the convenient store near the office. But suddenly the driver asked who would drop off Trinoma, then I answered I will, even when I still haven’t decided really yet. I wanted to blame the driver because he asked. If he didn’t, I should just have been able to let it pass by and bye Kenny Rogers. Too bad I go straight to Kenny Rogers. Maybe because I was thinking I don’t need to buy anything for now, I’ll just treat myself with a good meal. So much for that, I screwed already 2 things out. First, saving money, instead of just having a cheap value meal, I bought two roasted chicken, which cost Php300. Secondly, a meal for two is too much for my diet plan, how about that losing of beer belly thingy.

I arrived to work and eat these foods. Slowly, but heck, I think I ate unmannered. I ate like a pig, so gross. Or just say like a dog. Like try throwing a bone to the dog, and notice how they chew on it, I was like that, ewww. As in I even ate the soft bones, doing it as I blog hop. After finishing the food, I noticed how gross I was. With the oil from the chicken in my cheeks and face, I would definitely have another pimple after I wake up. Good thing I still have the facial wash in my box so I rushed cleansing myself. Few hours now from our shift, and only 2 clients contacted me as I compose this post, while my co-workers are watching a marathon of America’s Nest Top Model. Just the last week every one here was also linked with Coffee Prince. Hahahaha.. What’s next??

Since last week up to today, I have noticed lots of people bought themselves some cool gadgets, PSP, brand new phone, new clothes and shoes, signature accessories, etc. I have been always telling my self why didn’t I just chose to have a simple life like them, having a good time of their life, enjoying every second with out worrying about the future.

I don’t know with you my readers. Maybe most of you are still students, who still rely on allowances and parents money. But for those who are working already, those who received their bonuses, what did you do to your money??

Me, as I said from the last post, I bought appliances for my change of lifestyle. These appliances are supposed to be my parents’ responsibility right? But why am I still worrying about them??

Here is just my thing. I am crazy!!!

What would I actually do with these items? I was living already before my life with out them? Would it be an enough prize for a good work for a year?

If we wanted to have something, shouldn’t this something be worth it?

Until here by now… Happy Three Kings!!!

Great Start Up!!!

I woke up 3^rd day of the year, from a dream that bothered me. It is also the day for me to start again to go to work. The dream composed about my wish from the start, and I was enjoying the company. But a twist of fate makes it look like something from a movie. Maybe I’ll share it to another post sometimes. I woke up with the scenario on my mind, and realized what does it has to do with what I planned to do for the future. I was worried it is some kind of a warning. Then I overheard my parents chatting from outside the room, discussing of how to enhance our way of living; they definitely got the idea because of the appliances I bought for the lifestyle change. This makes me connect my dream about the plans I have. So I wondered again thinking about the possibilities

I get up checked on the internet to see if any of my promising friends left any comments on my new site, but it just got me frustrated. So prepared and went to work.

As I arrived, another holiday gift from our senior was on my desk. No one can answer who specifically gave it until the next shift arrived. Wow, what a fun start. Although, some of my co-workers ruined my mode (because of the money that was given to them and used my paypal account for the transaction; they are so impatient and stupid; don’t dare to threat me banning my site as a virus you ass shits, you don’t even support my projects you porn lovers), I just don’t mind them.

So my first shift for the year was so at ease, although I did not came to work at the first day. Since there was no client for me, I decided to blog hop with the idle time I have. Suddenly, our manager approached me offering an additional assignment for the company. I don’t know if I should feel sorry from the looks of my manager, but I directly declined it. I knew it means a raise of salary, but I thought it would just steal my idle time to do some self-study or blog hopping (plus the feedback from those who handled the position did not like it). So I said I am not interested. Maybe if it is a developer’s position, I would grab it. But checking on porn sites/infected website for viruses/spyware, I may not be able to expand my horizons from it.

So after a couple of hours with the blog hop, I was surprised with the blast of commentators driven back to me. I was thrilled understanding the spirit of blog hopping, and with the feedback I received (oh yeah, the wound is not terrible, it’s just a scratch with small pain when you touch it). I just visited the links from AISHA’s blog, and half of it responded back to me. What more if I really do an official blog hop. Thank you Guys!!!! Or better yet, ladies

I did not have the strength to actually do a post yesterday because of excitement; I really want to give thanks to you guys/girls for welcoming me to this world. I will definitely be more eager to make my site a better blog to visit. That’s a promise.

Happy New Life!!!

Happy New Year everyone!!!

At last, the countdown is over. Today is the new day for the year of 2008. And today is the day I start my blogging life. I am now excited to see how this new industry would improve my lifestyle. It’s already been a year since I started working regularly with an internet base company. With those experiences, I learn about this blogging world.

Okay, honestly, I am creating this post this New Year’s Eve. Exactly 11:25 PM of December 31, 2007. Tonight I really did not go for firecrackers, unlike those previous years. I am really tired and would just eat and sleep for later after an hour or two. These past few days I have been working on to make a design for this blog. My own theme and own idea. Many say the color combination is not really good for my design, and I answered, “Just as I expected”. Well, I am still going to enhance my design. I am not really an artistic kind of guy, but I really do things differently. Let’s just say I am unique.

Yesterday was a family reunion. I design a little bar where I mixed drinks for my unknown relatives. And this day is when I finalized the problems with my design. I know it’s really not looking good yet, but at least it’s the start.

Okay, I am now running out of time. The countdown is just few minutes ahead. More post to come. More about PAHN!!!

 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

I'll get one Someday!!!

Well, this whole day I’ve been spotting expensive a luxurious cars. And in our place, it’s really seldom you see such luxury. In every cool car that passes me by, I give only one reaction, “I want to destroy you!!! “. Lol, this reaction comes to me because the beauty of their cars doesn’t fit with the other cars on its side. They are like the royalty passing in the town of nobles. Maybe I’d say I’m a little envious of it, but I know I’ll get one of my own someday.

That was the time I saw couple of expensive cars on noble streets. There was also a red Ferrari pick-up truck, and I remembered a top-down Ford I think. And they were cruising on a very bumpy road at Quezon City. Somewhere at EDSA

Completely Beautiful Stranger

Oh great!! I am in complete adrenaline today…

I just bump in to this one gorgeous lady who I have no idea who she was. Well, as a regular dude I appreciate her beauty by checking her out. But damn,, I have no intention of being snobbish. I got to seat with her face to face and out of the blue, she said I was familiar. The stupid me just whispered “Oh, really?” grrr, that is really stupid of me!!

Okay, why am so stupid?? Come on, that sounds so snobbish of me. It was making the lady feel awkward.

Crappy me yes, I do remember that time. Oh, that girl was so pretty. Just like my sort of want from a girl. So Chinese and sweet voice too.. It was a ride to work from at the jeepney.

Pahn Starts his Blog

I copied my very first post from MySpace BLOG. Funny, it has so many errors. But I decided to keep it for laughs someday if I wanted to read my first serious blog post. Oh yeah, I did change some tags and category by this time I am decoding my whole blog

Okay, I have aleady tried to start a blog for a long time now. I just am starting to feel so stubborn in making one. Well, here is the start. I am using MySpace blogging. Thinking what should I really try to express or say. Maybe I’ll just share what I did today. Yeah, blogging is all about sharing your life status. Or simply, it an online journal or online diary. Well, I have started knowing about this blog thingy from a friend, named Aisha, who is hooked more on blogging rather that social networking sites.

Okay, today I have been woken up by the noise in our house with my family getting ready for school and work. I get up being asked to book my dad and aunt for a flight in Bacolod. Sadly, my grandma died two days ago and only them can go to the burial because of money problem. After so, I went back to sleep and have my cousin and nephew making the noise in the afternoon. I ate first and then watched few movies from the net. I remembered that I have to pay the electric bill today and continue watching when I got back home. After so, I played some games and decided to fix my MySpace profile. Trying to figure out how to make it look better, I got to decide starting this blog, which you are reading now. While I was creating this blog, Aisha asked me in Yahoo Messenger were can she find some good old chatting and we tried different site. She ended up decideing to download again There and use her account to chat in the 3D world of There. After a few minutes, she has to go to bed and I have to finish this blog. Then my parents asked me to print something for them, and finished what I am doing to call it a night.

Not bad. LOL
And this is the first blog I can share

First Step-Next Door

Hello, and welcome to my Life. This would be the first step for me to create this blog, a Blog about my life, experience, drama, fantasy, dreams, fun and success!

Anyway, as this title says so, First Step-Next Door, because this will be my first step in creating a blog. Plus I have just entered the next door of my life. Why do I say so? It is because I have this vision of how I will be getting to my goal… Be f*ck*ng filthy rich guy someday… I will be giving it a different post, maybe. But here, I just want to share with yah all how I am embracing the challenges that will be coming to me.

Let me start by sharing with by the time I leave GrooveNet, Inc, a company that I worked for 6 months. June 8, 2007 was my official last day with that company. Cause June 12 was my official start to the new company that I am now. But even thou, I still help at organizing the Groovenet’s 1st yr anniversary party.

Oh yeah, if you read this post, this was my very first blog post I made
from my first try with wordpress.com

It has so many grammatical errors so I edit a little